Is my message getting through? You never seem to see it my way.
I barely update because I never really have anything new going on for me, which is sad, but I'm working on it. Recently, my kidney problem really became an issue. I had so much pain in my kidney and bladder and almost went to the ER. I toughed it out until I passed out due to the pain. My body has become so sensitive to salt than it ever has before and I've had this since the 5th grade. Other than that, I've filled out a bunch of job applications to throw around so I have a good chance of getting a job and just shove money in the bank. I finally got my permit renewed so I can get my license, ah! Better late than never. I have a really good friend back in my life and I'm so happy that she is. I have been keeping in mind that I do need to take care of me so I can continue being there for others that I adore and love. I've also realized that even though I am a relationship-kind of girl, my heart is locked in a cage [as cheesy as that sounds]. It's like there's an automatic halt from trying to have a relationship when I know with every atom of my being that I just cannot have one right now, even if I miss loving someone in that way. I'm also getting back into constant modeling shoots, which I really miss and I know I've improved since the last time I had a shoot. In March, I finally saw Tim after talking to him for so many years!!! The visit just validated why we've been friends for so long <3 I went to the Sounds show on the 2nd at the Note and it was awesome, I danced so much! I finally got to see a good friend of mine after not seeing her for years. I'm trying to get my life together and keep happiness by my side. I need to let myself face challenges. And I will.
P.S. - Say 'Hi' to little baby Gizmo!