Holy rant, Batman!
Oh boy, I have got a lot to say and I will try my best to be clear about what it is I'm trying to say here. I feel as if I've been through more as a kid all the way through high school, which makes me feel older than what I really am, and I haven't even turned 21 yet! So, the fact that there are people in my life that are unappreciative of my or mutual friendships, i refuse to deal with it anymore. I can't fathom the fact that people I thought were one of my best friends, goes behind my back and talks mad shit about me. And for what? What did I ever do to you? Last time I heard a good friend talked about me behind my back, I cried. Drama is so lame. If I have something to say to someone, that's exactly what I do: I TELL them; I don't go off running to everybody, saying things that are meant for one person to hear. People have been coming in and out of my life a lot this year. It happens, but I don't feel like tolerating those that don't bother having a friendship with me and make me do all the work. Sorry, but this is not high school! I am the kind of person who is straight-forward and is capable of keeping good people in my life for years and years until the day I feel like they don't appreciate me and take me for granted; that's the day they will no longer be in my life. I feel so fucking old on the inside that I almost keep forgetting that I turn 21 at the end of December this year. It's very simple: If you don't want to be my friend for whatever reason you pulled magically out of your ass, so be it. I'm not going to beg and plead for you to stay in my life. And, please realize who are ACTUALLY your friends instead of kissing their ass and making them out to be the best thing that ever happened to you when in reality, they just go to you when they're alone. Open your eyes! Another topic that has been bugging the shit out of me is the whole nightlife scene. I can't believe I've witnessed people that I know whose personalities have changed in order to impress those that are regulars at these spots. it makes me sick; again, it's high school behavior. What's going to happen once the nightlife scene or the scene in general disappears? You'll be left with yourself, fighting to find out who you truly are. I have never tried to fit in my life and I've been that way for as long as I can remember. Who needs a crowd? Who needs to be accepted and for what? To look cool in one person's eyes? Not worth it, they most likely don't think much of you anyway. They just use you for the moment and act like they give 2 fucks about you, how cool! Not. Are they going to be around when you're older? When you need them, perhaps? Doubt it. What is so wrong with being yourself? Fuck. What a waste of life it is to spend your whole life trying to be something you're not. Give it up already and save yourself before it's too late. I'm not going to be here forever, so stop taking advantage of me and running back to me when you need advice then taking me for granted. Enough.
Prince doesn't enjoy your stupidity.