I want to let things be.
I love to write and have all the time to, but the urge to do so doesn't come along so easily and it sucks. Everyday, I become more anxious for this year to be over. All I want is to spend my 21st birthday at the end of December with my friends and family in NYC and be wherever my friends are on New Years Eve [most likely Philadelphia]. I need a fresh start and get on the path to start doing what I want to do. I feel like I've felt every basic emotion a human can feel this year. I just can't afford [physically, financially, emotionally, mentally] to have another year like this until I'm on my own two feet, doing things my way and living my life. I don't expect anything like I had done last year coming into this year; I'll just be positive and hopeful that things will be different this time around.