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it seems that whenever i write about how great i feel, it is immediately followed with me saying the next day how i feel completely opposite. i retract all previous statements about everything being marvelous and good. and this is no exception. i can only hope that today was not the first day in a long succession of bad things happening and that this was just a fluke. for the past 3 months or so, things have been so great, but now, i feel so sick. and so sad.
this morning, i carried dexter downstairs and gave him a big hug and told him i loved him. and that was the last time i will ever do that. maybe its silly to be so melodramatic over losing my cat, but its not. the thing is though, as sad as i am and as much as i'll miss him, i know he had a great life. a short life, but a great life. he gave love as much as he received it. he loved to cuddle and he loved to play. i don't regret making him an outdoor cat. he loooooved going outside to chase squirrels. and i've always known that there may be a day that he won't come home.
it'll be hard to adjust to him not being here. hearing him wander in my room at 4am. the sound of him racing down the stairs. or the sound of him purring when he's cuddling in bed with me.
he was seriously the best cat ever. my heart is broken.
this morning, i carried dexter downstairs and gave him a big hug and told him i loved him. and that was the last time i will ever do that. maybe its silly to be so melodramatic over losing my cat, but its not. the thing is though, as sad as i am and as much as i'll miss him, i know he had a great life. a short life, but a great life. he gave love as much as he received it. he loved to cuddle and he loved to play. i don't regret making him an outdoor cat. he loooooved going outside to chase squirrels. and i've always known that there may be a day that he won't come home.
it'll be hard to adjust to him not being here. hearing him wander in my room at 4am. the sound of him racing down the stairs. or the sound of him purring when he's cuddling in bed with me.
he was seriously the best cat ever. my heart is broken.