[16] And long after we're saved, the lights will not fade.

[lovetoomuch]

And the Light shone in Darkness; and the Darkness comprehended it not...

I love my knack to so often be the epicenter of so many people's hatred.

Perhaps it is finding pleasure at the misfortune of others... but it also sounds like a few certain people I know, does it not?

So you two like it hot, do you

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[goddesshelpline]

....

Yubel-san....

[lovetoomuch]

I hate them.

I hate them.

They are the obstacles that stand in my way.

And I don't want to hear why I shouldn't do it, or how I'm a terrible person for wanting to. I already know these things.

Yet, it feels so right anyway.

[goddesshelpline]

I don't think you're a terrible person, Yubel-san.

But I'd like to talk to you before you do anything at least?

[lovetoomuch]

............

I have no reason to want to please you, or anybody else.

((OOC: There are signs on this comment that Yubel was originally typing something else before deleting everything and writing the above.))

[goddesshelpline]

...

I could...find you if I wanted to, Yubel-san. I don't want to force this issue like that.

[lovetoomuch]

...........

You may find me, but that doesn't mean I will talk, however.

[goddesshelpline]

...that is all right.

I will not scold you. You do not need that.

I just want to help.

[lovetoomuch]

.........

...There is nothing you can do.

This is a problem for me and them. And I have a solution when I can find a way to execute it.

...If you were me, you would hate them too.

((OOC: Strikes illegible.))

[goddesshelpline]

Please, Yubel-san. I can help you better if we speak face to face.

I just...don't want you to be hurt anymore.

[lovetoomuch]

...Why wouldn't you?

I enjoy this. I enjoy what I am, and what I've become. I am alive because of it, if only barely.

The pain is bittersweet. But it is as I said: is it not worth putting up with for the one you love?

[goddesshelpline]

...Yubel-san, you have a beautiful soul.

But it is clouded. It's even affecting your mind...

[lovetoomuch]

Clouded?

Perhaps you should ask my dear Juudai about that, then. I'm sure he'd be more than happy to explain it to you!

That trip to hell made me who I am. The clouding makes me who I am. My ultimate decision... made me who I am. Perhaps it is not to your liking, or anyone else's, but it is entirely what I am.

...Beautiful, indeed. Juudai is the one with the beauty; every kind imaginable. And with very good reason.

[goddesshelpline]

It is clouded. I can see you are a good person inside. I can see how strong your love is. It's a wonderful sight.

However, that clouding will...cause great pain that I do not wish upon you.

[lovetoomuch]

Pain?

Pain no longer scares me. Pain merely makes you live. All love, no matter what kind, has pain of some degree attached to it.

This one just happens to have... very large amounts of it. ♥

[goddesshelpline]

Why do you believe that?

[lovetoomuch]

Experience.

There is no better teacher than experience.