wow
wow says it all...i dont have any idea what is going on lately..God has been throwing soooo much stuff my way lately that im not sure what to do..i had a long talk with amanda last night bout everything which was really good..i needed to say everything to one person cuz lately i havent been able to talk to my usual advice people cuz they are involved in the issues...and the issues just keep on coming....but after talkin to amanda i think i just need to let everything go and just end all the complications..i need time to sit and think by myself and see where im goin....i also need to learn to say whats on my mind...one of my worst qualities is that i hold back and wait until sooo much builds up that i blow up at someone...and that time is on its way cuz i cant deal with all of this right now...every little thing gets to me way more than it should...and im gettin too attached to things i shouldnt and its gonna hurt so much more later..but i know that i cant let go of what i really need to, cuz thats the one thing that makes me happy...well now that u are all really confused im sure, im goin to lay in bed and think...no sleep again tonight...........