black coffee and cigarettes for breakfast
Well damn...it's been WAY too long since I last posted here. I guess I've just been slacking off lately. :)
Nothing too incredibly interesting has been going on, which just makes me feel like my life is lame. But it's all good because at least I'm working and paying off all the debts I have...a life will come AFTER that. Oh, and after I'm off probation. haha...speaking of which, I'm hoping to be on non-reporting soon. I mean, I'm only in there for five minutes with my officer. I spend most of my time waiting or taking the drug test. I always pass the drug test, I'm always on time, and I'm on pay plan that I keep up with. Next month will be my 5th month, sooooo here's to hoping my officer will let me go. :D (and for those who don't know why I'm on probation, it's because of that lovely OWI - Operating While Intoxicated - I recieved the night before New Year's Eve because I was extremely dumb and didn't think I was drunk...and please don't preach to me about how you hate people who drive drunk and how they are all kinds of fucked up becaue I know this. My father is the king of DUI's and I don't plan on following in his footsteps. I made a mistake and I'm owning up to it. I'm not going to do it again, and that is something that I really do mean. It is not worth the "what if's?" that went through my head while in jail, it's not worth the money I owe, and it's not worth the loss of trust some people had in me.)
Other than that, I've been grappling with the idea that I still don't know what I want to do with my life. I turn 22 next Friday and it's like I'm stuck. I'm taking classes at the community college and working but it's still like blah. I feel like if I don't know I'm never going to know. Buuuuut I know that's not true. I gotta stop being down on myself. (wow, bipolar much?? haha...I changed my perspective in like, 2.5 seconds)
Life is still pretty awesome, though. Just live it and love it I guess. :D
Nothing too incredibly interesting has been going on, which just makes me feel like my life is lame. But it's all good because at least I'm working and paying off all the debts I have...a life will come AFTER that. Oh, and after I'm off probation. haha...speaking of which, I'm hoping to be on non-reporting soon. I mean, I'm only in there for five minutes with my officer. I spend most of my time waiting or taking the drug test. I always pass the drug test, I'm always on time, and I'm on pay plan that I keep up with. Next month will be my 5th month, sooooo here's to hoping my officer will let me go. :D (and for those who don't know why I'm on probation, it's because of that lovely OWI - Operating While Intoxicated - I recieved the night before New Year's Eve because I was extremely dumb and didn't think I was drunk...and please don't preach to me about how you hate people who drive drunk and how they are all kinds of fucked up becaue I know this. My father is the king of DUI's and I don't plan on following in his footsteps. I made a mistake and I'm owning up to it. I'm not going to do it again, and that is something that I really do mean. It is not worth the "what if's?" that went through my head while in jail, it's not worth the money I owe, and it's not worth the loss of trust some people had in me.)
Other than that, I've been grappling with the idea that I still don't know what I want to do with my life. I turn 22 next Friday and it's like I'm stuck. I'm taking classes at the community college and working but it's still like blah. I feel like if I don't know I'm never going to know. Buuuuut I know that's not true. I gotta stop being down on myself. (wow, bipolar much?? haha...I changed my perspective in like, 2.5 seconds)
Life is still pretty awesome, though. Just live it and love it I guess. :D