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So I've had pretty messed up dreams for as long as I can remember and it doesn't seem to be getting any better.
For years I dreamed of my mother's ex husband and I would dream that he was trying to kill me or I'd dream of us fighting forever.
Now my dreams have shifted towards scarier things. For a while my dreams revolved around me trying to kill myself and either no one would stop me or if they did they got eaten by wolves. I've had nightmares that I watched my mother and aunt get ran over by a train or being raped by the Joker or simply being cheated on by my boyfriend.
I stopped taking my antidepressants and for a day or two I had fun dreams like fields of bunnies and stuff. Now they've shifted back to nightmares and it makes it incredibly difficult for me to stay asleep since I keep waking up and my mind seems to fight going back to sleep because it knows what's going to happen. I've been exhausted and sleep deprived for days now.
Last night I dreamed that I was so overweight I couldn't even stand on the scale without tipping over. While I was crying about my weight a lady comes over and starts yelling at me to get to work. Well I realize I have no idea what my job is or what I'm supposed to do. So I ask them to give me some sort of outline or idea of what my job is and they wouldn't. We were finally off of work when I landed in some trippy rave party thing where I started picking at my teeth until they were bleeding and my fingernails kept breaking off in my teeth.
I seriously never want to sleep again.
For years I dreamed of my mother's ex husband and I would dream that he was trying to kill me or I'd dream of us fighting forever.
Now my dreams have shifted towards scarier things. For a while my dreams revolved around me trying to kill myself and either no one would stop me or if they did they got eaten by wolves. I've had nightmares that I watched my mother and aunt get ran over by a train or being raped by the Joker or simply being cheated on by my boyfriend.
I stopped taking my antidepressants and for a day or two I had fun dreams like fields of bunnies and stuff. Now they've shifted back to nightmares and it makes it incredibly difficult for me to stay asleep since I keep waking up and my mind seems to fight going back to sleep because it knows what's going to happen. I've been exhausted and sleep deprived for days now.
Last night I dreamed that I was so overweight I couldn't even stand on the scale without tipping over. While I was crying about my weight a lady comes over and starts yelling at me to get to work. Well I realize I have no idea what my job is or what I'm supposed to do. So I ask them to give me some sort of outline or idea of what my job is and they wouldn't. We were finally off of work when I landed in some trippy rave party thing where I started picking at my teeth until they were bleeding and my fingernails kept breaking off in my teeth.
I seriously never want to sleep again.