Love?
This is a wierd place to be. I have moments where I feel overwhelmed with love for others and their love for me, and moments when I feel like the loneliest thing on earth. My cat is usually the only one that seems like a constant source of affection.
Im trying to learn to be less dependent on others and focus on myself for a while, but somehow I cant help wishing that one of the five guys I have crushes on will notice me enough to ask me on a date. Unfortunately most of them don't want to talk to me, and when I do force myself to start conversations they usually turn boring or worse, they talk about other girls they're interested in. I think these are signs that boys are not what I need right now, but fuck if I dont get involved with someone I wont be able to forget him.
In other news: 18 units IS hard, but Im sticking it out. I hope being busy will help me to produce better work, and work faster. Ive been thinking about joining an lj group for a package-sending pen pal, just because I love making packages. However, I kind of feel wierd sending cool shit to someone I dont know. So if anyone reading this wants an awesome artsy fartsy package from me, give me your address!
Im trying to learn to be less dependent on others and focus on myself for a while, but somehow I cant help wishing that one of the five guys I have crushes on will notice me enough to ask me on a date. Unfortunately most of them don't want to talk to me, and when I do force myself to start conversations they usually turn boring or worse, they talk about other girls they're interested in. I think these are signs that boys are not what I need right now, but fuck if I dont get involved with someone I wont be able to forget him.
In other news: 18 units IS hard, but Im sticking it out. I hope being busy will help me to produce better work, and work faster. Ive been thinking about joining an lj group for a package-sending pen pal, just because I love making packages. However, I kind of feel wierd sending cool shit to someone I dont know. So if anyone reading this wants an awesome artsy fartsy package from me, give me your address!