The Rearview
And sometimes the inspiration comes from sweat-soaked sheets from night terrors of a future sans you, when all you really need is the truth...
"The Rearview"
Finally figured out today
A tricky little secret
The kind tucked away
Under layers and layers
Of my own inner demons
Insecurities and change
Don't handle them so easy
But I really gotta say
I'm tired of being
The rock
The safe place
Where you always turn to
For validation and love
I am no longer your completion
I don't need you
I don't need you
I don't need you
Anymore
I'm still fighting through each day
Cause yesterday was just make believe
Where one lie ends
And another you create
I could not tell you the difference
See, I was heartbroken
Ashamed
Too weak to see the real you
Or the blessing that you gave
Cause never again
Never again
No, never again
Will I believe in you
My trust and My faith
You held a hammer and a stake
Yet still I believed in you
No matter how many swings
No matter how many flings
Pierced me clean through
I covered for you then
And to this very day
I don't know why
But I fucking still do
Breathe, easy, always
Cause that's not the way
This story will continue
No longer will I proceed
Putting you before me
As tomorrow looks
Far more promising
The less of you I believe in
Cause darling I don't break
I will piece me back to completion
Your true nature revealed
Has finally set me free
I just had to see through
See the real you
And in a whisper
I'm a ghost
I'm your past
Unafraid
In your rearview
I find my smile these days
Amidst thoughts of my freedom
Always & Forever
I will never stop
I will never surrender
I will always love
I will always give
I still believe
I still believe
I will always believe in you!
I say to my own reflection
Smiling back at me
In the magic of the mirror
© Brian Milici
December 13, 2014
May you always find your smile.
"The Rearview"
Finally figured out today
A tricky little secret
The kind tucked away
Under layers and layers
Of my own inner demons
Insecurities and change
Don't handle them so easy
But I really gotta say
I'm tired of being
The rock
The safe place
Where you always turn to
For validation and love
I am no longer your completion
I don't need you
I don't need you
I don't need you
Anymore
I'm still fighting through each day
Cause yesterday was just make believe
Where one lie ends
And another you create
I could not tell you the difference
See, I was heartbroken
Ashamed
Too weak to see the real you
Or the blessing that you gave
Cause never again
Never again
No, never again
Will I believe in you
My trust and My faith
You held a hammer and a stake
Yet still I believed in you
No matter how many swings
No matter how many flings
Pierced me clean through
I covered for you then
And to this very day
I don't know why
But I fucking still do
Breathe, easy, always
Cause that's not the way
This story will continue
No longer will I proceed
Putting you before me
As tomorrow looks
Far more promising
The less of you I believe in
Cause darling I don't break
I will piece me back to completion
Your true nature revealed
Has finally set me free
I just had to see through
See the real you
And in a whisper
I'm a ghost
I'm your past
Unafraid
In your rearview
I find my smile these days
Amidst thoughts of my freedom
Always & Forever
I will never stop
I will never surrender
I will always love
I will always give
I still believe
I still believe
I will always believe in you!
I say to my own reflection
Smiling back at me
In the magic of the mirror
© Brian Milici
December 13, 2014
May you always find your smile.