Pondering
Life is a fucking contradiction. Why you may ask? I'll bloody well tell you why. First some examples..... Follow your heart... the result? You're selfish. Live in the now (For the moment etc)... the result? Rebellious, wasting your life etc. I just don't understand what is expected of me these days. I mean really. I've given up on other people. When it comes down to it. You and you alone are the only person you can really trust. I don't want anyone to take this the wrong way. I'm a positive person, I always try and see the brighter side to everything. I always appear happy and that's because most of the time I am. I'm not going to lie. I'm not going to say I'm an un-happy person because brooding is Oh-so-cool. I really don't give a shit. I'm just having trouble understanding what the hell goes through other peoples minds. I know I make sense, to me at least. What really fucks me off is the bitching and the backstabing and all those other unpreventable injustices... I can't sit here and act like a fucking saint. I'm partial to everything. I know I am. But at least I'll admit it. I also like to think I'm pretty damn honest. So generally I'll really only have a bitchfest if it's because I'm concerned about someone elses well-being.... Ahhh fuck it. I love a good ramble/tangent! It's boring at home. I love it occasionaly but now I think about it I do really love company. I love laughing and it's not as fun when you're by yourself, although when the situation is reversed I'll argue the opposite. Funny how that works. Another contradiction.... HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH okay that's my first ever journal thing. if i get bored later which i will no doubt i'll write another one.