NO NO NO
Not happy. Not happy at all. Squeeze it till naught remains. Punch my guts out. I had a chat to someone today. It was a good chat. Basically I got to vent to this person and i felt a lot better for it. All that was said really was how i feel. It's good talking to almost complete strangers. You don't have to pretend everythings okay because they don't know or care how unstable you are. Some one who's just willing to listen cause they know you want to talk and you really can't tell anyone that you do know. It always makes you feel a bit better. So I do. About one aspect of this mess that is my life. Actually I don't feel better about it but it was good to rant about. Isn't it funny. how outside everyone seems fine, yet some people want to take a closer look. they want to know a bit more, they can see that hiding beneath the rough human exterior there is a beating heart and not just a mass of confudled emotions. I'm not implying anything here. So no one get all suss on me. i just typing random thoughts that are going through my little brain. I hate work today. they won't even let me go home and i am so sick! so i refuse to do anything for the rest of the day. hence the reason i am typing complete dribble. i wonder whats going to happen when i go overseas... i wonder why we are given emotions... i know it's our right and if we didn't we'd be nothing but robots, but at the same time can you not help but think.. sometimes feeling's a hell of a lot crueler than freedom.. hmmmmm i love splatter. i wish i could fly. it would be so awesome. i hate walking up stairs and if i could fly i wouldn't have to anymore! that's all for now. i probably write one tonight when i am all lonely!