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ok so was at donnies last night and we were all drinking and smoking and just having a generaly good time.. but then he had to take a shower with ashley.. and I feel so childish sometimes when things like this get to me.. but its just common courtesy to not do thing w/ ppl your bestfriend had a thing with..
granted it was two years ago and ocassinally off and on but still it pisses me off.. not to the point of full on rageing (sp?) anger but to the point where i will probably ingnore her for a day or so... because i just feel stupid for being mad and i dont want to even bring it up.. and besides she HAS a boyfriend granted she was planning on breaking up with him last night and then that didnt happen but she didnt break up w/ him this morning either....
i dont kno why this bugs me all i know is that it does.. i know that if she had known it would bug me she wouldnt have gone there and besides she doesnt even remember what happened (if anything)... i dont even know if anything actually happend... im just assuming which is a good assumption becaue i know him all to well and she was drunk and is easily taken advantage of...... so to get the truth id have to call donnie and i just dont want to go there.... it wouldnt have been so bad i think if matt had stayed instead of going home.... too bad hes a church boy.. id llike him alot more if her wasnt.. he did explain it a bit to me and was cool w/ me being an atheist and wasnt a jack ass about it.. but he doesn't go to church when hes at college only when hes home....
i know this sounds bad.. but some people are racist and so on.. and im religioust.. i hate religious ppl especially christians and catholics.. they piss me off.. they get all holyer than thao (sp?) and its annoying.. then the pull the your going to hell card so i just tell then arent you supposed to be nice to your neighbor or whatever? and they just look at me and i say well i guess ill see you there then.. that normally pisses them off!!..
but i dont know... i feel stupid for getting mad maybe i should grow up.... its not like him and i are going out.. i dont know.. wheni move into my apartment this summer ill find someone fun and then all wil be good.. untill then.. i give up on all men.. there a pain in the ass.. i have yet to meet one that hasnt either A hurt me or B wanted me and i wa just like NO your not good enough for me.. man that sound ocnceited but its true.. im picky and i have standards i have lowered them a few time because i just wanted sex but for the most part there intact... hell who fucking cares anymore....
on to a new topic.. im done w/ school on wed. im really excited!!!! graduation is the 4th and im exstatic about that.. so yay for growin up and going out into the "rewal world" in august!! haha first its off to a glorius summer of camp! which i love!!! Its not VBYC but it should still be fun.. there are a few cute people but i havent met the whole staff yet so.. who knows!!!
but this is long enough and im going ot go take a shower!!
granted it was two years ago and ocassinally off and on but still it pisses me off.. not to the point of full on rageing (sp?) anger but to the point where i will probably ingnore her for a day or so... because i just feel stupid for being mad and i dont want to even bring it up.. and besides she HAS a boyfriend granted she was planning on breaking up with him last night and then that didnt happen but she didnt break up w/ him this morning either....
i dont kno why this bugs me all i know is that it does.. i know that if she had known it would bug me she wouldnt have gone there and besides she doesnt even remember what happened (if anything)... i dont even know if anything actually happend... im just assuming which is a good assumption becaue i know him all to well and she was drunk and is easily taken advantage of...... so to get the truth id have to call donnie and i just dont want to go there.... it wouldnt have been so bad i think if matt had stayed instead of going home.... too bad hes a church boy.. id llike him alot more if her wasnt.. he did explain it a bit to me and was cool w/ me being an atheist and wasnt a jack ass about it.. but he doesn't go to church when hes at college only when hes home....
i know this sounds bad.. but some people are racist and so on.. and im religioust.. i hate religious ppl especially christians and catholics.. they piss me off.. they get all holyer than thao (sp?) and its annoying.. then the pull the your going to hell card so i just tell then arent you supposed to be nice to your neighbor or whatever? and they just look at me and i say well i guess ill see you there then.. that normally pisses them off!!..
but i dont know... i feel stupid for getting mad maybe i should grow up.... its not like him and i are going out.. i dont know.. wheni move into my apartment this summer ill find someone fun and then all wil be good.. untill then.. i give up on all men.. there a pain in the ass.. i have yet to meet one that hasnt either A hurt me or B wanted me and i wa just like NO your not good enough for me.. man that sound ocnceited but its true.. im picky and i have standards i have lowered them a few time because i just wanted sex but for the most part there intact... hell who fucking cares anymore....
on to a new topic.. im done w/ school on wed. im really excited!!!! graduation is the 4th and im exstatic about that.. so yay for growin up and going out into the "rewal world" in august!! haha first its off to a glorius summer of camp! which i love!!! Its not VBYC but it should still be fun.. there are a few cute people but i havent met the whole staff yet so.. who knows!!!
but this is long enough and im going ot go take a shower!!