haha OSS
So im sitting here on my day off!! lol so its really OSS but its a day off still!!! and i thought.. i need to write a few random thoughts down.. so here i go...
Whats the deal with me everytime i see a relationship coming my way i go running to the hills.. i know i want one but i dont know why i have such a problem with it.. is it that i can't date around after that which i do alot.. or is it that after being hurt a few times.. well once and i hurt someone the other but whos counting.. that i decided that me as a couple just isnt a good idea... I mean sure i like a few people but why is it that my first thought is always... he/she is hott... man i'd sleep w/ them.. not oh they seem nice i wonder if a relationship could come out of this.. am i a sex addict.. no i dont think so.. do i have low self esteem and try to find gratification in sex?.. no i don't belive that thats it either.. but then why is that what i want instead of a meaningfull relationship.. everyone says "oh you just havn't found the right person yet" and i partially agree with them but on the other hand im like hmm... maybe i won't ever find that right person.. i don't know.. im going off to college and maybe there i'll find someone i like.. that u can tollerate for more than a night or two.. ehh enough pondering on this quetion for today!!
Whats the deal with me everytime i see a relationship coming my way i go running to the hills.. i know i want one but i dont know why i have such a problem with it.. is it that i can't date around after that which i do alot.. or is it that after being hurt a few times.. well once and i hurt someone the other but whos counting.. that i decided that me as a couple just isnt a good idea... I mean sure i like a few people but why is it that my first thought is always... he/she is hott... man i'd sleep w/ them.. not oh they seem nice i wonder if a relationship could come out of this.. am i a sex addict.. no i dont think so.. do i have low self esteem and try to find gratification in sex?.. no i don't belive that thats it either.. but then why is that what i want instead of a meaningfull relationship.. everyone says "oh you just havn't found the right person yet" and i partially agree with them but on the other hand im like hmm... maybe i won't ever find that right person.. i don't know.. im going off to college and maybe there i'll find someone i like.. that u can tollerate for more than a night or two.. ehh enough pondering on this quetion for today!!