Nooooo! Not improved! LOL- I'm still broken- I cannot get this story out of my head! That's how affecting it was. I even tried reading high doses of schmoop, but I keep coming back to this like a sore tooth! *g*
I'm fascinated by all the different reactions to the John in this story, and how everybody picks up on something different. I can see some of John's intention to care for his boys and yes, it comes through for Dean but not Sam, who really doesn't ever seem (through Sam's eyes?) to get John's approval. Like, ever.
Still, for me, the beating in the shed just really trumped everything. I can't help but see that as abusive and brutal and over the top, no matter what Sam had broken or how mouthy he got. And then him having to come home and clean up his own bloodied and bruised legs, and be sent to bed. Wow. Just wow.
And Sam's sense of imprisonment, which is so true, because no matter how bratty he may be being, he is still just a kid, and he doesn't have any choice.
Still, I'd love to see this story continued. I'd love to know how the aftermath of this played out, and what happened next in this particular version of the Winchesters, even though I know it will only break my heart a little more.
What I did??? John's the one outta control here. : D Sorry the schmoop didn't help, but I'm pleased that the story had such a powerful effect on you. And yeah, through Sam's eyes, he gets no approval from John, none. Even though, maybe, John is giving it. He's not speaking in a language that Sammy can understand, Sammy who is young enough to NEED this approval. God, how did he ever make it to be such a cool grown man, if this was going on? That's what I wonder.
And it's interesting that you mention the care after the beating. I actually had several conversations with my beta sheaseth about what would really happen, given these characters in this situation. I also had many late night conversations with myself and ran through multiple iterations in my head. In the end, I decided on the simplest one, which, as I thought about it, made more and more sense. I'm glad to see that my choice was an effective one! Not that I really want to make you feel bad....even though, yea, I like it like that. : D
I'm fascinated by all the different reactions to the John in this story, and how everybody picks up on something different. I can see some of John's intention to care for his boys and yes, it comes through for Dean but not Sam, who really doesn't ever seem (through Sam's eyes?) to get John's approval. Like, ever.
Still, for me, the beating in the shed just really trumped everything. I can't help but see that as abusive and brutal and over the top, no matter what Sam had broken or how mouthy he got. And then him having to come home and clean up his own bloodied and bruised legs, and be sent to bed. Wow. Just wow.
And Sam's sense of imprisonment, which is so true, because no matter how bratty he may be being, he is still just a kid, and he doesn't have any choice.
Still, I'd love to see this story continued. I'd love to know how the aftermath of this played out, and what happened next in this particular version of the Winchesters, even though I know it will only break my heart a little more.
See what you did? ;)
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Sorry the schmoop didn't help, but I'm pleased that the story had such a powerful effect on you. And yeah, through Sam's eyes, he gets no approval from John, none. Even though, maybe, John is giving it. He's not speaking in a language that Sammy can understand, Sammy who is young enough to NEED this approval. God, how did he ever make it to be such a cool grown man, if this was going on? That's what I wonder.
And it's interesting that you mention the care after the beating. I actually had several conversations with my beta sheaseth about what would really happen, given these characters in this situation. I also had many late night conversations with myself and ran through multiple iterations in my head. In the end, I decided on the simplest one, which, as I thought about it, made more and more sense. I'm glad to see that my choice was an effective one! Not that I really want to make you feel bad....even though, yea, I like it like that. : D
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