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Ok, confession time ("These are my confessions" wait, screw that! No singing this one)
No bullshit, no lies, no nother- just blant truth about what's gone on. First off, Cathy's parents have split, leaving her mother very lonely. For anyone that doesn't know Cathy's mother (EVERYONE), she's very minipulative. An example is that she told Cathy that she sees her with a football player after Cathy was going home from my house! Yeah, that's hurtful.
So, with Cathy's mom trying to hurt Cathy and I because she's "depressed" (Not going to cuse here), Cathy has no where to really turn. So, when we can't see each other because of complications, she gets VERY angry and controlling. She almost demands that I see her and, if I don't, she begins to cry. Many people would say "Well, if she's doing that, leave her! Get out!" It's just not that easy. When you truly love someone, you'll defy all just to be with them. I truly feel that I love her. That's why it hurts so much when these things happen, because I know that her heart is aching and, though she's not meaning to, she's taking it out on me.
So, today, I woke up to my dad yelling for some help. Went out and helped him then I received a call from Cathy. We fought and left with broken hearts each. So, that depressed me for the day and I felt bad through out the day, hence the Blogs! So, when she did finally call me back, I was millimeters from saying "I think we should break up." We were SOO close, you would not believe it. But, right before, I felt in my heart that I still loved her so much and that I couldn't leave her. So, I raced over to her house and we talked about it, following with a make-up (make-out) session. Then, I left her house (PJ had drove me there, my car's out of commission for a little) and we are good now.
So, I finally feel whole. I can't promise that we won't fight, but we'll be ok for now. Only thing i have to worry about now is her moving to New York soon. She may have to, for her mother doesn't make enough to be able to stay in the house that she's in now. So, it may come down to her moving and that would SUCK!
Well, in other news, I found out that another girl likes me and would "soooo ask me out" if I was single. What is there to like about me? I'm Italian, that's all I can think that girls would be attracted to. There's almost nothing that I feel that I can offer them that any other guy can...
Girl liking me count (no joke): 13
This makes me feel bad, because, if I hang out with them, they may become more attracted to me (hopefully less) and I won't be available so they'll feel bad. Maybe I should just fart and burp (and forget my deordorent :-D) to allow them to FLEE! I don't know...
Someone clear up my head, here's a broom.
Ryan Maguire, the zanny poet that stalks midgets! (Amy Onaga :-D)
PS: I LOVE Italian Music. It's so filling, unlike Rap and all. Sure, Rap, Pop, and all the others are good (I listen to EVERY type of music and could probably name a band in each genre) but just doesn't give you the satifaction that Italian music does. Everyone download "Mi Moreno" by Josh Grobin and hear how beautiful it is. JUST DOWNLOAD!
No bullshit, no lies, no nother- just blant truth about what's gone on. First off, Cathy's parents have split, leaving her mother very lonely. For anyone that doesn't know Cathy's mother (EVERYONE), she's very minipulative. An example is that she told Cathy that she sees her with a football player after Cathy was going home from my house! Yeah, that's hurtful.
So, with Cathy's mom trying to hurt Cathy and I because she's "depressed" (Not going to cuse here), Cathy has no where to really turn. So, when we can't see each other because of complications, she gets VERY angry and controlling. She almost demands that I see her and, if I don't, she begins to cry. Many people would say "Well, if she's doing that, leave her! Get out!" It's just not that easy. When you truly love someone, you'll defy all just to be with them. I truly feel that I love her. That's why it hurts so much when these things happen, because I know that her heart is aching and, though she's not meaning to, she's taking it out on me.
So, today, I woke up to my dad yelling for some help. Went out and helped him then I received a call from Cathy. We fought and left with broken hearts each. So, that depressed me for the day and I felt bad through out the day, hence the Blogs! So, when she did finally call me back, I was millimeters from saying "I think we should break up." We were SOO close, you would not believe it. But, right before, I felt in my heart that I still loved her so much and that I couldn't leave her. So, I raced over to her house and we talked about it, following with a make-up (make-out) session. Then, I left her house (PJ had drove me there, my car's out of commission for a little) and we are good now.
So, I finally feel whole. I can't promise that we won't fight, but we'll be ok for now. Only thing i have to worry about now is her moving to New York soon. She may have to, for her mother doesn't make enough to be able to stay in the house that she's in now. So, it may come down to her moving and that would SUCK!
Well, in other news, I found out that another girl likes me and would "soooo ask me out" if I was single. What is there to like about me? I'm Italian, that's all I can think that girls would be attracted to. There's almost nothing that I feel that I can offer them that any other guy can...
Girl liking me count (no joke): 13
This makes me feel bad, because, if I hang out with them, they may become more attracted to me (hopefully less) and I won't be available so they'll feel bad. Maybe I should just fart and burp (and forget my deordorent :-D) to allow them to FLEE! I don't know...
Someone clear up my head, here's a broom.
Ryan Maguire, the zanny poet that stalks midgets! (Amy Onaga :-D)
PS: I LOVE Italian Music. It's so filling, unlike Rap and all. Sure, Rap, Pop, and all the others are good (I listen to EVERY type of music and could probably name a band in each genre) but just doesn't give you the satifaction that Italian music does. Everyone download "Mi Moreno" by Josh Grobin and hear how beautiful it is. JUST DOWNLOAD!