Nevermind..
To all my "friends" that call themselves friends. Simply because i've known you for a while I could..wait there goes another one, another reason why i'm not myself right? I can't be myself. I never listen, I don't care, i'm just a fucking retard to you; I could say that in the end the people that fuck you over are the ones you let get close to you. So you could kind of say it's your fault too. How long does it take for you to get to know a person and actually call them a friend? Then, when you finally see them as one all the flaws start showing, like an ok sign because they know their your friend already so you could just simply forgive them if they fuck up. Or maybe it was one of those days when you woke up and decided that today just wasn't your fucking day. Friends. What can I say about them? I can't say much really. One of my friends don't even come to school, and the other one is still being questioned. Maybe the friend that helps me through everything because he/she looks down on me. Maybe while i'm getting advice from you you'r actually saying "damn, I wasn't this pathetic. I really feel sorry for you". You know, fuck you. Fuck you for fucking me over. After helping you through so damn much and sacrificing my time on you. I wasted my breath when I actually tried to start a conversation with you when you really never gave a damn as in wether we really talked or not. I could say I do feel like a fucking retard for letting shit get this far. I was so fucking blind. I spent most of my time thinking what the fuck did I do to you? and what did I do wrong to deserve to be treated like nothing? Then maybe if you read this you might start some shit over it and say "why the fuck did you right that?" maybe throw in a nice "you know I love you". My response to you would be why the fuck do you care? I think you'r a joke. Maybe you need more help than I do. You never really opened up to much, I wonder how much sick shit you actually thought of. Never saying a word, just walk around fucking people over, having a great time as if life was some game. I think about it now and it's hard to believe that I trusted a stranger. Maybe i'll see you around in the future while i'm stuck in some traffic and you need some change. You'r not doing any good for yourself, but that's ok. When your "friends" fuck YOU over don't come to me because i'm not here for you anymore. Maybe i'm having one of my moments now and when I wake up in the morning i'll call you again. I keep pushing to see if this is real but the more I push the more tired I get of all this pathetic ass shit. I'm done. Seriously, I need to get a life and stop fucking with people like you.