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i want to jump in my car, drive to your house, run inside and hug you and comfort you and tell you i don't hate you. actually, it's not that i want to, but that i feel like i have to, that i should. i'm torn in two. i want my brother back and i'm sick of "being an only child." but i feel like if i don't keep this going, that i've lost. i know that that is wrong, but it's how i feel. i'm not a door mat and i feel like you STILL have not gotten my point. you and i should have NOTHING to do with brooke. while i love her to death, you and i are fighting, you KNOW you have a winning chance with me, so why are you not fighting for it? am i not a good enough prize? is it not good enough to say "i've gotten my sister back?" we lost each other once, once when we had no control over the situation. now that we have control, it's being thrown out the window, thrown out with the trash. neither of us wants to give in. i KNOW that i am right in this situation. i know that i've done NOTHING wrong. i will stand my ground on that until i die.
it's like i don't know what to say and yet i have so much to say at the same time. i don't know where to go with this.
i cannot and will not do anything further with the brooke situation. will all know where she stands. accept it and move on. it's not fair for me to try and change her mind and it's not fair of you to keep badgering her about it, besides, it just pushes her further away.
the things you have said to me and about me to brooke have killed me. i cannot believe you would say those things, only to turn around and tell me you loved me.
maybe we should just go back and be BROTHER and SISTER and not friends. because it seems to not be working very well.
we both know how the beginning was written, the middle is still being fought through and only god knows how it will end.
it's like i don't know what to say and yet i have so much to say at the same time. i don't know where to go with this.
i cannot and will not do anything further with the brooke situation. will all know where she stands. accept it and move on. it's not fair for me to try and change her mind and it's not fair of you to keep badgering her about it, besides, it just pushes her further away.
the things you have said to me and about me to brooke have killed me. i cannot believe you would say those things, only to turn around and tell me you loved me.
maybe we should just go back and be BROTHER and SISTER and not friends. because it seems to not be working very well.
we both know how the beginning was written, the middle is still being fought through and only god knows how it will end.