Chances are, no one will read this. And, while I feel compelled to delete this entry, as I have done so many others, I think I will leave it
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Reading this post, I could't think of any response other than to just nod.. I agree with everything you've said. I just recently went through my deadjournal and deleted all of the "Randall" posts.. I'm not sure why, it's just something I don't want to have around anymore. I don't want the reminder of how insecure and weak I felt at that time in my life.. and still am, just like you (as you say). And I also feel terrible sometimes for rambling on so much about Ryan.. but he's a big part of who I am, as is Nick with you.. so if people can't handle hearing about the most important things your life, it's not that hard to just scroll past. Nick was actually saying something a couple weeks ago about on-line journals, and I defended them in the same way you did, kind of.. it's a place for me to just sort out my thoughts, record the things I want to remember, and stay in touch with the people who you might have otherwise lost contact with altogether. All in all, I guess my point is that it feels good to know that there's someone out there thinking the same thing as me, so I guess I'm not so crazy afterall :P Also, I miss you- it's been forever! We played volleyball the other day, and I was thinking about calling you and asking you if you wanted to come, (like last year :P)but I remembered that you were in Florida. (I'm jealous) So we should definitely try to do something, if you're up for it! :P *end ramble*
yes. sometimes, online journals are silly, and Nick rants at me about that sometimes (too much drama). but it's good to hear you say this. (And thanks for liking my poem. when people do, it means a lot). i miss you too!!! i'd love to do something, but i'm pretty busy until may (the play). and i am bad at volleyball. :p
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