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I hate when friends use you just to cry about all their shit and whine and complain and you sit there and listen and talk with them on the phone for ever and ever and you're just not appreciated. Its just like "yeah, whatever ok, cya later" then they go set up plans and crap with all the stupid people they complain about... This has happened to me with 3 or 4 people this past week and what the fuck, why does this happen? NO IDEA. You think they would learn, or at least just care about how much time i spend listening to them, and i'm not saying quit, just ugh, dont make me feel inferior to everyone else.
and then i hate the people who are your best friends, but everyday something changes, and one day you'll fight, and u both say shit you're gonna regret and the next day its all nicey nice till i cannot figure out what they want, and ugh i can't figure out how i feel. maybe its just me.
it probably is, so i'm gonna quit. I'm not gonna even bother, I'll just listen to all the crap but i guess just not care as much, and if they miss me, then they can do the talking and the phone calls and whatever else. but then i feel bad, cuz at least 2 of the people listen to all my shit and listen when i feel like crying..guess i'll just have to hush up also.
and hmm got in another fight with dad, i guess him not drinking was only a temporary little skit. It was jessica aka cinderella today, and yeah he just scares me. i didn't know eyes could look so scary.
and then i hate the people who are your best friends, but everyday something changes, and one day you'll fight, and u both say shit you're gonna regret and the next day its all nicey nice till i cannot figure out what they want, and ugh i can't figure out how i feel. maybe its just me.
it probably is, so i'm gonna quit. I'm not gonna even bother, I'll just listen to all the crap but i guess just not care as much, and if they miss me, then they can do the talking and the phone calls and whatever else. but then i feel bad, cuz at least 2 of the people listen to all my shit and listen when i feel like crying..guess i'll just have to hush up also.
and hmm got in another fight with dad, i guess him not drinking was only a temporary little skit. It was jessica aka cinderella today, and yeah he just scares me. i didn't know eyes could look so scary.