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yeah, i am sick of life, its just one of those days, bad day at work, coupled with bad situations, nothing new, just feeling it harder today than usual, at least i've finally got a friend to go to the bar with and kick back a few. its nice to just relax and have a few with out ya know, "LETS GET DRUNK!!!" type attitude or atmosphere. i'm not really the partying type so its nice to not have to put up with that, i actually go to the bar a lot now, and i still havent been drunk since last new years, so dont judge. but enough of that, i miss you emily, call me sometime, i'll probably give you a call tomorrow sometime, evening most likely. but yeah, i need to plan a SoCal trip too. but all in good time my friends, all in good time. not much else new, the love front is still as confusing and emotionally destructive as ever. after the sausha thing and now this, and stuff, i'll be lucky to have something left. not really, i guess its better to have love and lost than to never have loved at all, but i think the person who said that was someone who was jealous because they'd never been i love, because having to end something with someone you love is harder than wanting someone you cant have by a million fold, trust me, it was for me anyway. but yeah. blah blah. i'm bored, as if you couldnt tell. i have to be to work at 4am which is in 5 hours. i dont think i'll sleep. probably not anyway. but yeah, work is going well and thats then end.
my name is ryan and i hate people who end their posts like this every time
my name is ryan and i hate people who end their posts like this every time