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well well well im back! yes i am ummmm long story short im in college i went out with nick for a month and then we broke up i havent talked to my ex john in months and college life is great just having a hard time concentrating on school. i met a guy and liked him and then i dont like him now and i like this other guy that i barely know but gawd hes a cutie. um some guys like me but i only see them as friends and so i dont want to hurt them. um um um my grades are eh and college is like an extended summer vacation its pretty god damn fun. one thing i found out is that there is more drama here than i ever had in high school. which is unappreciated by me but im trying to steer clear of it for some reason i want to be with someone but none of the guys that like me are appealing to me mainly b/c they were my friends when i had a b/f and i still see them as my friends. i guess its just the weather, the time of year that u want to cuddle with someone and the cold breeze is a constant reminder of the holidays to come. ive really cut back on my drinking and smoking which is weird but i guess it has something to do with the fact that im single and and i dont wanna make out with some random person at a party, im over the get wasted to do something with a guy and have no regrets phase. i never thought of it like this but i may find the guy i marry at this college, the person i spend the rest of my life with. well im sorry everything ive written is so general but it has been a while anyways goodnight and god bless!