im eating nerds! mwahahahahaha
ok so last night i kissed ross. it was weird but at the same time it was comforting, it made me feel kinda the same way i did before the last time we were dating. lol last night this guy asked how we met and i was like in a parking lot... god its so weird how u meet people and have no idea that u would be so associated with their lives. and i kinda feel bad for john too at the same time, nonetheless i still think about him. im just gonna wait to see if he wants to call, he knows my number and when hes ready or if hes not ill always be there for him. anyways last night ross threw a party there were prolly at least 50 people there, so me and melissa go early talk to keely and i sit on the bed with ross while hes chiefing out anyways people strat showing up by 10 and i was randomly walking from person to person and me and ross would cross paths and walk with each other again except when people would call me and i would run out so i could hear. anyways me and ross go out on the porch to smoke and he was like "do u think this could happen again?" and i was (drunk) like not exclumisvley lol. and he was like yeah i know, so anyways i come bac in a call melissa and i was like U BETTER NOT HAVE GONE YET! and she was like yeaaa but i couldnt find u and i was like well at least u could have said bye! and then she was like sheila listen i was talking to keely and she said the cops were called before and they could get u for under age drinking. and i was like shit. then melissas mom called and said the same thing and offer to come pick me up and then i was like thats amazing, they really care you know and i felt so bad i wish there was a way i could offer them something. so yeah i walk back in after i get another call from a guy i havent talked to since like feb abd he wants to hang out, i swear when u are single its like every male u know has radar and knows exactly the time priod when are are available or not. and some just dont care. so yeah i go back in on the dance floor and im sitting next to these two guys and im watching ross dancing with this girl (she is really sweet by the way) and then they walk out togther. so me and that girls friend were talking and all of a sudden she is like OMG! we have to dance! so we go out on the dance floor and and then become sandwich by like 3 other guys and this one REALLY hot guy was like whats ur name and so then im dancing with two guys and te guy in front of me kisses me and once that song was over i was like BYE! anyways (ive probably said that so many times now). so i go upstairs and grab my shit and go out through the front door and i see ross and that chick talking to some people and this was ross the whole night "Uh your killin me!" lol so im like this is my cue... so i call melissa back and all of a sudden i hear running behind me and it was ross and he was like where are u going and i was like im gonna leave anywyas have fun, blahblahblah and once i got to melissas i tlaked to her for like 10 mintues before me and her mom talked for like two hours it was good really. we talked about alot of stuff and even though theres a big age difference everything we talked about was along the same lines. more later