I can't take it
I read a blog on myspace about how someone very close to me's health is getting worse. He is dealing with cancer and the fact that someone who is such a great person is so sick makes me want to fall apart. Supposedly he is on lifesupport because one of his lungs does not work and he cannot breath on his own...he is also unconscious and he is starting more chemo which can cause his liver to fail. I just hate this. He was the first guy i dated in college and the fact that he's so sick just hurts. I want to ball my eyes out but i can't. It just sucks because my aunt also had breast cancer and i just think...shit...why, God, why. I mean when I was 12 my mom had brain surgery for crying out loud. If he gets worse I don't know what i'll do. I know i shouldnt be writing this because i could just make things worse and maybe i could get my facts wrong but i need to blog and i have only one friend on here who goes to the same school i do. I wish i had the money to watch a Helen movie...maybe that would make me feel better...but no i dont own one because i am too broke to buy one off of amazon. SHIT. Anyway I'm done ranting and if someone actually reads this and comments I will be shocked. So if you do read this...say a prayer for him or anyone that is battling cancer. Please...