how am i going to get it back?
An incredibly wise, and dearly missed, friend asked me this question. I don't really know the answer. I know that I'm putting forth the effort. And I'm trying to realize that missteps... relapses... are to be expected when you try to fight severe depression and an eating disorder without medication or therapy.
But I think this is the first step: being open and honest with the people that care. I need to stop smilling because I think it's what other people expect from me. I need to learn how to feel okay with being flawed. I need to start putting myself first sometimes.
I've let this thing beat me for too long.
I'm trying.
But I think this is the first step: being open and honest with the people that care. I need to stop smilling because I think it's what other people expect from me. I need to learn how to feel okay with being flawed. I need to start putting myself first sometimes.
I've let this thing beat me for too long.
I'm trying.