...I've waited hours for this, I've made myself so sick...
So today has been kind of shitty. I am blaming it on PMS. My mom came into work and tells me that her and my dad are going to go to dinner in Greendale kinda by where Chris lives and I just started crying. Idk. I am highly emotional today. I feel really moody and I hate being like this, I always lash out at people unintentionally. I kept falling asleep in all of my classes, I am so drained from working all the time now. I never get a chance to sleep in anymore, and I never get up AFTER the sun rises. I kept checking my phone every 30 minutes since I was waiting for Chris to text me, but *sighs*...he didn't. Well...when school was over he did. So then yeah back to work. Chris told me to call him when I got a chance so I called him around 5 when I went on my break. he was at Jimmy's doing something with an entertainment set. Things, were fine and then he said how Kt was there.
...Then...I just wanted to cry. So I told him I had to go and I just sat in the break room...staring...
I feel so threatened by her...it's insane. I feel like she will always have one up on me. Chris tells me I shouldn't feel that way...but with past events, I feel like I should. He's too nice to me. I can't handle it today, I just want to scream, but I have no reason to. I have the perfect boyfriend and all I can do is sit here and worry...worry...worry...
I'm so worried, I sitll have ALL my Xmas shopping to do for Rachie, mum, dad, Katie, and then I wanted to get some other people something little ya know? Since I have a grand total of 3 dollars in my bank account I don't know what I am going to do with that. Nutcracker...thursday...broke. God damn. I need to ask my mom shit about that too, and I am NOT in the mood to get yelled at...not today. I got my new Irish Claddagh ring today since my old one had a stone missing...my dad threatened to show it to my mom. I begged for his mercy. Idk. Someone gave me Jelly Bellys in Latin for out 'Secret Saturnalia' and I just can't stop eating them. ugh. Well I think I am just going to go now and try to talk to Missa Baby and stuff. I am so cold to...this sux...
~I'll cry you a rive some other day, when I have the will to build my brigde and get over it~
To.O.tles
...::*::...Lucky...::*::...
...I just want to see him...