Make that not broken up
We are back together.
:)
I is happy.
Through talking as much as we did yesterday, we both aired things that needed to be discussed and we also highlighted things that were wrong in our relationship. We are addressing those things and through time, we shall fix them.
:)
My stepdad thinks that i was not strong. He is of the opinion that he thought i was "stronger" than that. Even though we were only not together for like 3 hours, it was a huge mental shift and process, that we spent three hours discussing and contemplating. Tonight we talked. Talked as the conversation flowed naturally winding it's way along it's path. Unhindered and free. It was nice. It was connecting.
We need to see more of each other. We need to make time for each other. I need to beb truthfull. I feel that this has made us stronger and we have been giventhe insight into what it would be liketo loose one another. Because we did. Be it only a short period of time, it was real. I hadn't even began to process the long term ramifications. That would have ensured total mental breakdown. I would have gotten through it eventually, because i am strong but it would have been very hard and taken a long time. Quite long time. I told my baby that if time took us in different directions and he wanted me then he'd have to fight. People fight for what they believe in. My baby fought for me last night. He fought and won and i am quite chuffed.
I realised that we do work. Really, i know that we have always worked but we need to not forget each other. We need to not fall into the trap of thinking that hey, we've been together 19 months and 4 days and it's all good - we can just put us on the back burner. We cannot. Sure, there is a sense of permancy which comes with being in a relationship for so long yet that can lead down a bad path. I think we were begining to slowly turn onto that path and we have decided that we are worth more to each other than letting each other lose the other. We look afer each other, we look out for one another, we seek to comfort the other when they are sad or blue, we laugh and rejoice when the other is happy, we share in the moments, both good and bad, that life brings and we lean on the other, we want the other to suceed in what they do or want, even if that means we have to have a leave of absence, we are proud of each other and of what they do. Lastly, we love each other. Though love does not mean an easy ride, and that everything will automatically be ok. Love works in with attraction, compatability of morals, views of life, wants and desires and other things to make a realtionship.
We have done the right thing. This experience was something that was useful and insightful. It shall be remembered and it shall weave it's way into our life journey along a road that has a fair way still to go.
:)
:)
I is happy.
Through talking as much as we did yesterday, we both aired things that needed to be discussed and we also highlighted things that were wrong in our relationship. We are addressing those things and through time, we shall fix them.
:)
My stepdad thinks that i was not strong. He is of the opinion that he thought i was "stronger" than that. Even though we were only not together for like 3 hours, it was a huge mental shift and process, that we spent three hours discussing and contemplating. Tonight we talked. Talked as the conversation flowed naturally winding it's way along it's path. Unhindered and free. It was nice. It was connecting.
We need to see more of each other. We need to make time for each other. I need to beb truthfull. I feel that this has made us stronger and we have been giventhe insight into what it would be liketo loose one another. Because we did. Be it only a short period of time, it was real. I hadn't even began to process the long term ramifications. That would have ensured total mental breakdown. I would have gotten through it eventually, because i am strong but it would have been very hard and taken a long time. Quite long time. I told my baby that if time took us in different directions and he wanted me then he'd have to fight. People fight for what they believe in. My baby fought for me last night. He fought and won and i am quite chuffed.
I realised that we do work. Really, i know that we have always worked but we need to not forget each other. We need to not fall into the trap of thinking that hey, we've been together 19 months and 4 days and it's all good - we can just put us on the back burner. We cannot. Sure, there is a sense of permancy which comes with being in a relationship for so long yet that can lead down a bad path. I think we were begining to slowly turn onto that path and we have decided that we are worth more to each other than letting each other lose the other. We look afer each other, we look out for one another, we seek to comfort the other when they are sad or blue, we laugh and rejoice when the other is happy, we share in the moments, both good and bad, that life brings and we lean on the other, we want the other to suceed in what they do or want, even if that means we have to have a leave of absence, we are proud of each other and of what they do. Lastly, we love each other. Though love does not mean an easy ride, and that everything will automatically be ok. Love works in with attraction, compatability of morals, views of life, wants and desires and other things to make a realtionship.
We have done the right thing. This experience was something that was useful and insightful. It shall be remembered and it shall weave it's way into our life journey along a road that has a fair way still to go.
:)