Todays subject is....whatever you think of.
Lets see...havent written in days so i guess its due time right?
Well other than the sadness of thursday lifes been going pretty good...turned the big 18...still get treated like a kid but hey....its cool. Once im out i guess i'll actually get to live in the big world and got get so sheltered. I mean i grew up fending for myself, i KNOW whats out there in the big world..i know how cold and harsh it can be....i know whats going to happen to me when i move out and everythings up to me. Its a no brainer really....
Lets talk about theatre now....Well theatres gone down the pisser this year becuse we dont have any of our big actors anymore...so everyones dropping out leaving the few of us who actually WANT to do somthing with ourselves out in the dust......andes constantly got this mood now where everythings not right...tisha and emma are pretty good directors...though somtimes they talk a little to much and dont let the actors do any acting.......and leave alot of the decisions to ande...but hey they're learning.....i just feel REALLY bad for next years people. I just wish everyone wouldnt get so upset just becuse J.T. is gone...(J.T. i know your going to read this so dont get offended by any of this ok?). He's the most wonderful actor i've ever seen i know...but that dosent mean the worlds going to come to an end when he leaves....Just becuse we lost one great actor dosent mean we're out does it? I mean alot of us *cough* ME *cough* would like to stretch our acting muscles a little and try to do the best they can...and this year it dosent seem like its going to happen that way....and its not just J.T. that we're missing...i mean for the musical this year we've got kirkman not here anymore...we dont have our big bass master carl...reeves is missing and our crew master adreine isnt here anymore(I dont know how crew is doing...but i hope its ok.)...and you know what? Everyone sees this as a HUGE thing thats going to leave us in the dark...well let me say this.....I really think this could be great for us....Those guys where awsome....they were terriffic...the best i have ever seen in the world....and now that there gone you know what that means??? THE REST OF US CAN SHOW OFF WHAT WE'VE GOT!!! NOW THAT WE DONT HAVE THOSE PEOPLES SHADOWS LUMING OVER US WE CAN FINALLY SHOW OFF WHAT WE'VE REALLY GOT! So i really think that we need to just stick together on this and hope for the best...i mean...thats what we've always done right?
Ok now that im off of that lets get to my romantic life.
Im still in the deepest fucking love with loryn. The girl is the love of my life...nobody will ever compare to her...I love her with all of my being. Even my little kidney loves her :). I mean there are somtimes that she may say somthing that will kinda get to me...like when she wrote "I want to get high as a kite" Or her latest "I want to go to a rave and trip off some acid"......-_-''' all that says to me is "mike is dull and boring and i need to go get high or trip off of acid to make it all go away"....that may be the case...and it most likely isnt...but you know what...I dont care. I KNOW I love this girl....I know i want to grow up with her and wake up next to her and live the happiest life ever with this girl. I know i do...No body knows what the future will bring...no one knows how or where we will end up....I could end up being the president and she could end up being a junky in the road becuse of that time she went to a rave and tripped off some acid and then cheated on me with some strange dude and ended up pregnant with his kid....or she could be the president and me be the junky becuse of trying that one hit and never wanting off.....all kinds of things could happen right? But, I have a new theory on life...if you hope...and wish for somthing enough...and have your mind dead set on it, why shouldnt it happen? Every night i hope and wish and dream about us being together....I wake up in my sleep crying somtimes becuse of a bad dream where she left me...(never done that before in my whole life)...I've sat there and cried with her...just for the fact that we are both very happy now.....and then somtimes we sit there and just get mad at eachother over dumb stuff....like the other night....she was teasing me and i got kinda mad that she just left me hanging there -LOL-....but you know what...its ok....becuse lifes not just about stuff like that....loving someone isnt just about stuff like that...though it is a very fun part about it -lol-, its not the only thing about it. What really matters is that we love eachother...and that we cant stand being apart from eachother...and that everytime i leave her house i try to leave around 11:35 becuse i know by the time i get in my car its going to be 11:50...why you may ask? Becuse we are saying our goodbyes to eachother and when i start to leave one of us runs to the other and hugs really tight and kisses again...god i love her...just thinking about that makes my lips tingle beucse i miss her kiss....or her touch...GOD I LOVE HER!!!! I never want to have to live without her...i hope i never do.......I LOVE YOU SOOOOOO MUCH LORYN!!!
And that about sums up my life thus far....well im going to play the sims online now....everyone take care and listen to this
"When lifes done...and the cards are laid down....which is more important? Making everyone around you happy...or being happy yourself?" -big mike-
Well other than the sadness of thursday lifes been going pretty good...turned the big 18...still get treated like a kid but hey....its cool. Once im out i guess i'll actually get to live in the big world and got get so sheltered. I mean i grew up fending for myself, i KNOW whats out there in the big world..i know how cold and harsh it can be....i know whats going to happen to me when i move out and everythings up to me. Its a no brainer really....
Lets talk about theatre now....Well theatres gone down the pisser this year becuse we dont have any of our big actors anymore...so everyones dropping out leaving the few of us who actually WANT to do somthing with ourselves out in the dust......andes constantly got this mood now where everythings not right...tisha and emma are pretty good directors...though somtimes they talk a little to much and dont let the actors do any acting.......and leave alot of the decisions to ande...but hey they're learning.....i just feel REALLY bad for next years people. I just wish everyone wouldnt get so upset just becuse J.T. is gone...(J.T. i know your going to read this so dont get offended by any of this ok?). He's the most wonderful actor i've ever seen i know...but that dosent mean the worlds going to come to an end when he leaves....Just becuse we lost one great actor dosent mean we're out does it? I mean alot of us *cough* ME *cough* would like to stretch our acting muscles a little and try to do the best they can...and this year it dosent seem like its going to happen that way....and its not just J.T. that we're missing...i mean for the musical this year we've got kirkman not here anymore...we dont have our big bass master carl...reeves is missing and our crew master adreine isnt here anymore(I dont know how crew is doing...but i hope its ok.)...and you know what? Everyone sees this as a HUGE thing thats going to leave us in the dark...well let me say this.....I really think this could be great for us....Those guys where awsome....they were terriffic...the best i have ever seen in the world....and now that there gone you know what that means??? THE REST OF US CAN SHOW OFF WHAT WE'VE GOT!!! NOW THAT WE DONT HAVE THOSE PEOPLES SHADOWS LUMING OVER US WE CAN FINALLY SHOW OFF WHAT WE'VE REALLY GOT! So i really think that we need to just stick together on this and hope for the best...i mean...thats what we've always done right?
Ok now that im off of that lets get to my romantic life.
Im still in the deepest fucking love with loryn. The girl is the love of my life...nobody will ever compare to her...I love her with all of my being. Even my little kidney loves her :). I mean there are somtimes that she may say somthing that will kinda get to me...like when she wrote "I want to get high as a kite" Or her latest "I want to go to a rave and trip off some acid"......-_-''' all that says to me is "mike is dull and boring and i need to go get high or trip off of acid to make it all go away"....that may be the case...and it most likely isnt...but you know what...I dont care. I KNOW I love this girl....I know i want to grow up with her and wake up next to her and live the happiest life ever with this girl. I know i do...No body knows what the future will bring...no one knows how or where we will end up....I could end up being the president and she could end up being a junky in the road becuse of that time she went to a rave and tripped off some acid and then cheated on me with some strange dude and ended up pregnant with his kid....or she could be the president and me be the junky becuse of trying that one hit and never wanting off.....all kinds of things could happen right? But, I have a new theory on life...if you hope...and wish for somthing enough...and have your mind dead set on it, why shouldnt it happen? Every night i hope and wish and dream about us being together....I wake up in my sleep crying somtimes becuse of a bad dream where she left me...(never done that before in my whole life)...I've sat there and cried with her...just for the fact that we are both very happy now.....and then somtimes we sit there and just get mad at eachother over dumb stuff....like the other night....she was teasing me and i got kinda mad that she just left me hanging there -LOL-....but you know what...its ok....becuse lifes not just about stuff like that....loving someone isnt just about stuff like that...though it is a very fun part about it -lol-, its not the only thing about it. What really matters is that we love eachother...and that we cant stand being apart from eachother...and that everytime i leave her house i try to leave around 11:35 becuse i know by the time i get in my car its going to be 11:50...why you may ask? Becuse we are saying our goodbyes to eachother and when i start to leave one of us runs to the other and hugs really tight and kisses again...god i love her...just thinking about that makes my lips tingle beucse i miss her kiss....or her touch...GOD I LOVE HER!!!! I never want to have to live without her...i hope i never do.......I LOVE YOU SOOOOOO MUCH LORYN!!!
And that about sums up my life thus far....well im going to play the sims online now....everyone take care and listen to this
"When lifes done...and the cards are laid down....which is more important? Making everyone around you happy...or being happy yourself?" -big mike-