uhh yeah
okay so things are really screwed up right now.
- school
- family one
- family two
- friendships
- relationships
and i'm getting behind in my studying and rituals, which really bothers me, cause sometimes i feel like that's all i've got to hold on to.
but yeah, i'll get through it ... always do.
uhhh Kat's really happy with Phillip, which makes me happy ... idk. i think our friendship is kinda just a tiny bit still fucked up from all that drama last week. eh. it's hard to explain.
i also miss being able to talk to Carson about everything. cause for a while it was like he was the only one who really understood me and where i was coming from, even with the dumbest things. idk whatever. but i'm glad to see that he's happy with Terry.
Megan is pretty happy in her relationships right now, which again, makes me smile. yeah. i miss her. we never really see eachother outside of school anymore. we've just got totally different friends for the mostpart.
i have no idea what to think about Scott. or Nate, for that matter. it's all extremely baffling right now. they both confuse the shit outta me.
but right now, i would definitely have to say that i feel most secure with Nate. i don't know, there's just something about him.
i really don't think i could live with myself if i hurt Scott again, like i did with Ben. he knows i'll wait for him, but i honestly can't wait forever. i think things will be better between us once i get to Seminole next year ... hopefully.
so yeah, Scott is still always there in the back of my mind but right now i'm definitely leaning more towards Nate ... which in a way, kinda scares me. but that's a different story.
i was talking to Corey about the Nate situation and what he said has stayed in my mind, and i guess it's true.
PogodancingIn77: if you guys went out, i would be happy for both of you
PogodancingIn77: you guys seem like you would be a really good couple
TheresBEAUTYInIt: hey! whoa! no! lol
PogodancingIn77: lol
TheresBEAUTYInIt: haha. why do you say that?
PogodancingIn77: hey, i'm just telling the truth
PogodancingIn77: 'cause it seems like you guys hit it off on Saturday pretty good
PogodancingIn77: it's like you guys look so comfortable together
TheresBEAUTYInIt: hahahaha. no coment.
PogodancingIn77: ...at least in my eyes
PogodancingIn77: hahaha
TheresBEAUTYInIt: aw
TheresBEAUTYInIt: that was sweet.
PogodancingIn77: :-)
TheresBEAUTYInIt: lol i didn't want to leave him. :-[
PogodancingIn77: see!
PogodancingIn77: ...and you say you don't like him.
PogodancingIn77: lol
TheresBEAUTYInIt: Corey! Shut Up! You're Suppost to be taking my side in this! lol
so yeah ... i don't know, there's a lot to say, and i just can't find the words to say all of it right now.
EDIT:
oh yeah, and i got a xanga, just to try it out and see which i liked better.
http://www.xanga.com/home.aspx?user=x__skyy
♥
- school
- family one
- family two
- friendships
- relationships
and i'm getting behind in my studying and rituals, which really bothers me, cause sometimes i feel like that's all i've got to hold on to.
but yeah, i'll get through it ... always do.
uhhh Kat's really happy with Phillip, which makes me happy ... idk. i think our friendship is kinda just a tiny bit still fucked up from all that drama last week. eh. it's hard to explain.
i also miss being able to talk to Carson about everything. cause for a while it was like he was the only one who really understood me and where i was coming from, even with the dumbest things. idk whatever. but i'm glad to see that he's happy with Terry.
Megan is pretty happy in her relationships right now, which again, makes me smile. yeah. i miss her. we never really see eachother outside of school anymore. we've just got totally different friends for the mostpart.
i have no idea what to think about Scott. or Nate, for that matter. it's all extremely baffling right now. they both confuse the shit outta me.
but right now, i would definitely have to say that i feel most secure with Nate. i don't know, there's just something about him.
i really don't think i could live with myself if i hurt Scott again, like i did with Ben. he knows i'll wait for him, but i honestly can't wait forever. i think things will be better between us once i get to Seminole next year ... hopefully.
so yeah, Scott is still always there in the back of my mind but right now i'm definitely leaning more towards Nate ... which in a way, kinda scares me. but that's a different story.
i was talking to Corey about the Nate situation and what he said has stayed in my mind, and i guess it's true.
PogodancingIn77: if you guys went out, i would be happy for both of you
PogodancingIn77: you guys seem like you would be a really good couple
TheresBEAUTYInIt: hey! whoa! no! lol
PogodancingIn77: lol
TheresBEAUTYInIt: haha. why do you say that?
PogodancingIn77: hey, i'm just telling the truth
PogodancingIn77: 'cause it seems like you guys hit it off on Saturday pretty good
PogodancingIn77: it's like you guys look so comfortable together
TheresBEAUTYInIt: hahahaha. no coment.
PogodancingIn77: ...at least in my eyes
PogodancingIn77: hahaha
TheresBEAUTYInIt: aw
TheresBEAUTYInIt: that was sweet.
PogodancingIn77: :-)
TheresBEAUTYInIt: lol i didn't want to leave him. :-[
PogodancingIn77: see!
PogodancingIn77: ...and you say you don't like him.
PogodancingIn77: lol
TheresBEAUTYInIt: Corey! Shut Up! You're Suppost to be taking my side in this! lol
so yeah ... i don't know, there's a lot to say, and i just can't find the words to say all of it right now.
EDIT:
oh yeah, and i got a xanga, just to try it out and see which i liked better.
http://www.xanga.com/home.aspx?user=x__skyy
♥