Mar 04, 2005 09:12
1 more day!
it seems like forever
okay, well like 3 weeks, but still
and my fucking mom WILL let me go.
we're not doing so well, we haven't been for a while
but i guess she's finally realizing that
and she's trying to care, but i don't.
i feel bad saying this because i know there are a few of my friends who don't have their mothers
for different reasons.
and they wish they could still have them
but it's just not like that for me.
my mother and i have never had a close mother-daughter relationship.
she says it's because i've always been really rebellious
but whatever, that's just who i am
and i'm not changing for anyone, even if it is her.
i think she's finally realizing all of this because seriously, her and Kat are closer than we are.
Kat tells her stuff and then when she asks me about anything i just don't anwser her
or walk into the other room telling her it's nothing
or that it doesn't matter.
and it pisses her off but i really don't care anymore
she had her chance to form that little mother-daughter bond,
and she didn't try then, so now when it's too late, she wants it
fuck that!
i really don't want anything to do with her anymore
i mean, i still have to live under her roof and all
but that doesn't mean i have to like her or talk to her
and this is the way it'll stay for the next 2 1/2 years.
that's more than fine with me.
it just really bothers me when she starts comparing me to her
I AM NOTHING LIKE HER!
she wants so bad to 'guide me and not let me turn out like her'
well then all she needs to do is give me some fucking space
i just want her to realize that
the closer she tries to get,
the further i'm going to push away.yea anyways, i don't care
fuck this day ... tomorrow will be so much better.