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for 5 or 6 hour i got to talk to some one i think i might be falling for..well to tell the truth i think i already have fallen for this person.theres just one..well big problem,i live in cali and he lives in ny.i feel so lame about this...i meet him on line mounths ago.i came so close to meeting him.(i went up to ny to visit family and he lives very close to where i was staying.we had talked about meeting up and everything but he had family problems at the time,and 2 days befor i was to leave he e-mailed me saying he was really sorry an told me what happend an why he couldnt make it out to see me.i was fine with it,i really didnt think it would happend anyways) so ive never meet him or talked to him on the phone(well that changed),i only know him from online.first i thought 'oh yah hes just a hot guy on line blah blah' but then i really started to talk to him, like tell him my problems and things,and he really lisined*im guessing*-reason for that, he gives me grate advice.he trys to help me with things in my life...but why?no one really cares about me like that..in the ways of 'oh ill help you'.so yah, i started to like him.i'd make silly little hits about it, not really meaning anything by them.finaly he said something about them.it was simpl really"you like me dont you?" of cores i played it as i didnt know what he was talking about,how could i even think of the thought of likeing someone i meet online~*~silly idea~*~but he knows me to the point where he can tell if im lieing.>how can you tell if someone lies about something in an IM..that losted medesperately hoping for any kind of emotions from him.mm i've lost my train of thought, ill most likely write about this more..-_- cuz im lame like that lol.but yah gada go.
feel so lame,i dont know how he feels about me, i can,if i really tryed,to go out to ny and meet him.thing would be, id have to stay,live there and all.do i really want to do such a thing...i mean what if he dose like me,and what if he was that"one person"id be changing my life..for something unmylife.whould it be worth it?-i might be moving there anyways- what dose he think of me!?! >.<