Freaking just so low...just want to die!!!!!!!
I am just really down at the moment. loves a bitch, and some am i. i just had a wired dream and it scared the shit out of me. maybe it was a vision. i don't know. its so wired. Wish i could say but people that the dreams about read this journal. so i can't. anyways. today.....
i did nothing.....or at least nothing yet. I am so bored. I just want to talk to ryan but he is at school and then he mostliky has work. I just wish that i can talk to him more. I need help. I just want to know what he wants. IF he wants to break up he needs to just do it, because i going to die anyways. its better knowing that no one loves me when i feel like killing my self then if someone dose......... sowwy i am just freaking out. i love ryan.. and if he ever broke up with me that would just be the end for me..
. ggggggggggggrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!!!!!!!