my story
My name: Maira
His/her name: Johnny (nene13)
I live: Tallahassee, FL
My age: 20 yrs old
He/She lives: Miami, FL
His/her age: 24 yrs old
Distance: 515 miles
Together since: July 2002 (off and on)
We Met: online/ 4th of July party
We get to see each other (approximately how often): Our goal is once a month
Future plans: be done with college, and if it's in the stars, get married and start a family together
I guess I'll go ahead and share my story, although mine is kind of tricky.
But I wanted to post here nonetheless, because I do have a lover who's far away.
Johnny and I have been together for over two years now, off and on. This is the 2nd time we're far apart from each other. First time was when I went off to college in New Orleans freshmen yr. We officially became a couple while I was away, and so we did the long-distance relationship thing for a while. I ended up returning home to Miami after a semester for other reasons. He proposed to me on my birthday (6 mos into our relationship) in early 2003, then some months down the line, we-or rather he'd argue I-thought it be best to break the engagement off, but still be together. We broke up January of this year, but funny enough decided to celebrate our "2 yr anniversary" this past July. As it is right now, we're not a couple, however, we feel so much love for each other that we act as if we still are.
I love this man to death. We have been through so much together and he has taught me things I would have never come to understand had I not met him. He's supportive, sweet, caring, understanding, incredibly funny, sarcastic, respectful, and true gentleman. The first time we met, he opened the car door for me, and continues to do so today. Seems like the perfect guy, right? So, why aren't we together you might ask? I'll admitt, I'm the one to blame. I feel like this is my time to find out who I am, what I want, and what I need in my life. He knows what he wants. He's made it clear that he wants us to spend our lives together, have a family, share our joy and sorrows, you know, all that good stuff. As for me, I hate to say it, but I'm still not sure... Granted, when I picture my married life with kids, he's the one I pictured in my future. But is it simply because he's the only man I've really been with for the past couple of years? Or is there more to it that I just seem to deny? The fact of the matter is, I want to be 110% sure we're meant to be together, if we are ever to get back together. He's wonderful yet for some strange reason I'm still searching. I go paranoid sometimes, thinking things like how every married couple usually say they knew right away their spouse was the one/their soulmate.. they knew from the moment they met... I never felt that instant connection with Johnny, so does that mean he's not the one for me or am I just driving myself crazy? Why do I feel the need to search when I've got this wonderful person standing before me whom I love with every ounce of myself? Is it a phase I'm going through because I'm in college? Is it normal? Am I just being extra careful before I comitt myself for good? That's another thing. I do not want to comitt to him, then a few weeks, or months down the line come to the realization I made a mistake, because I don't want to be unfair to him nor do I want to hurt him in any way. That's why I say I want to be 110% sure. Does anybody else feel this way or been through a similar experience?
(And if you've read this far, WOW! Thanks!)
Hopefully I'm doing the picture thing right as it's my first time. Please forgive me if it doesn't come out right.
His/her name: Johnny (nene13)
I live: Tallahassee, FL
My age: 20 yrs old
He/She lives: Miami, FL
His/her age: 24 yrs old
Distance: 515 miles
Together since: July 2002 (off and on)
We Met: online/ 4th of July party
We get to see each other (approximately how often): Our goal is once a month
Future plans: be done with college, and if it's in the stars, get married and start a family together
I guess I'll go ahead and share my story, although mine is kind of tricky.
But I wanted to post here nonetheless, because I do have a lover who's far away.
Johnny and I have been together for over two years now, off and on. This is the 2nd time we're far apart from each other. First time was when I went off to college in New Orleans freshmen yr. We officially became a couple while I was away, and so we did the long-distance relationship thing for a while. I ended up returning home to Miami after a semester for other reasons. He proposed to me on my birthday (6 mos into our relationship) in early 2003, then some months down the line, we-or rather he'd argue I-thought it be best to break the engagement off, but still be together. We broke up January of this year, but funny enough decided to celebrate our "2 yr anniversary" this past July. As it is right now, we're not a couple, however, we feel so much love for each other that we act as if we still are.
I love this man to death. We have been through so much together and he has taught me things I would have never come to understand had I not met him. He's supportive, sweet, caring, understanding, incredibly funny, sarcastic, respectful, and true gentleman. The first time we met, he opened the car door for me, and continues to do so today. Seems like the perfect guy, right? So, why aren't we together you might ask? I'll admitt, I'm the one to blame. I feel like this is my time to find out who I am, what I want, and what I need in my life. He knows what he wants. He's made it clear that he wants us to spend our lives together, have a family, share our joy and sorrows, you know, all that good stuff. As for me, I hate to say it, but I'm still not sure... Granted, when I picture my married life with kids, he's the one I pictured in my future. But is it simply because he's the only man I've really been with for the past couple of years? Or is there more to it that I just seem to deny? The fact of the matter is, I want to be 110% sure we're meant to be together, if we are ever to get back together. He's wonderful yet for some strange reason I'm still searching. I go paranoid sometimes, thinking things like how every married couple usually say they knew right away their spouse was the one/their soulmate.. they knew from the moment they met... I never felt that instant connection with Johnny, so does that mean he's not the one for me or am I just driving myself crazy? Why do I feel the need to search when I've got this wonderful person standing before me whom I love with every ounce of myself? Is it a phase I'm going through because I'm in college? Is it normal? Am I just being extra careful before I comitt myself for good? That's another thing. I do not want to comitt to him, then a few weeks, or months down the line come to the realization I made a mistake, because I don't want to be unfair to him nor do I want to hurt him in any way. That's why I say I want to be 110% sure. Does anybody else feel this way or been through a similar experience?
(And if you've read this far, WOW! Thanks!)
Hopefully I'm doing the picture thing right as it's my first time. Please forgive me if it doesn't come out right.