I love everything you said! Thank you. You've basically just reinforced everything I was thinking and put it into better words lol. It seems when I try to explain to him how I'm feeling about it all, it must just come out like waaa waaa waaa. And in reply, he tells me I'm just being negative. Or he just stays quiet. It's very difficult to have a conversation with him... nothing ever gets resolved. And it literally feels like I'm just talking to myself sometimes cos he usually just sits there in silence. I literally feel like I'm telling off a naughty child or something!
I do love him, and I believe that he loves me. And we do have our good moments together. But that's all they are if we can't even communicate. I just don't see this working out if it's always me fighting to fix it. And I've been in arizona with my family for the last 4/5 days and yeahh.. it's just me trying to keep up the communication. I really do feel like I'm fighting a losing battle but because I love him, and he is the father of my child, I don't want to give up that easily. I want to feel like I've done everything I can to fight for us and to make this work before admitting defeat.
Definitely not getting married anytime soon though
I do love him, and I believe that he loves me. And we do have our good moments together. But that's all they are if we can't even communicate. I just don't see this working out if it's always me fighting to fix it. And I've been in arizona with my family for the last 4/5 days and yeahh.. it's just me trying to keep up the communication. I really do feel like I'm fighting a losing battle but because I love him, and he is the father of my child, I don't want to give up that easily. I want to feel like I've done everything I can to fight for us and to make this work before admitting defeat.
Definitely not getting married anytime soon though
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