angst

[augustine_rose]

i'm new.
i haven't posted an intro post yet.
i will later.

i was actually in the middle of it when he called me
and told me that i could go ahead and buy the ticket
for his visit next October
except when i went to the airline's website
the price had jumped from $270
to $380
so i just spent the last 15 minutes crying
because the $270 ticket was pushing our budget enough
and with loans and housing and food and
textbooks and tuition and
i don't have a job for the summer yet
i don't have the extra money for this
now my head hurts from disappointment
and if i weren't so sad i would be angry with him
for waiting so long to call me

i don't want to study anymore
or have to think about anything, really
i just want to be there at home with him,
where ticket prices don't matter.