Aug 11, 2004 23:41
today was valuable. over a short lunch, with a fair-weather friend and a typical conversation, i learned a lot about myself. funny how that happens. realizations come from the least likely places. i realized this: 1)i don't spend enough time exercising my brain. 2)the past few months have been filled mostly with surface level friends and a million surface level conversations.. it finally occured to me today, after a few days of nagging uneasiness, that i have lost almost all ability to hold an intelligent conversation. 3)i fall for the wrong guys... and unrequitted like is the story of my short-lived love life. 4)i have no idea who i am anymore.
after lunch i went to the book store.. i purchased a book that is proving to be the most difficult thing i've ever tried to read.
my ♥crush♥ seems to have stood me up... two nights in a row.