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I think it is time to change my livejournal layout. It is too bland for my up beat personality.
Lately I have been pondering about life. Not so much the meaning of exsistence but what I want to do with it. I can go into my livejournal and find one post about this subject already. I talk about it entirely too much. I should be graduated with my Bachelor's degree by now, but I do not want to leave to go to a university. I have a wonderful realtionship with a very spectacular person and going to uni would mean leaving him here while I continue my schooling. Of course, moving to California would be hard as well. We would be both working full-time jobs and would have no time for school.
I also thought about my dog. I know this is really lame but I will miss him soooo much when I leave. He is my dog! I can't take him with my to California though, so he will have to stay with my parents. I don't want him to forget me though and I never want to replace him. I know this is lame, but what can you do?
So, deadlines are coming up and it is now April. I have yet to get that opportunity that I have been waiting for. How many more months will I wait for everything to fall through? I can't wait forever. It is nice knowing that this is my last year in Maryland, although I am afraid of the future. The future is pretty scary. My mom asked if Billy and I will be furthering our relationship since we will be moving out together. I don't know exactly what she means. I am guessing she is talking about getting engaged. I don't see any reason to rush it. It is a huge step though. Moving across country for the one person you want to be with.
I also have been thinking of the friends I have met over the last few months. I like to call them my BFF's because they are. It saddens me that I couldn't meet these people before. They make me smile and laugh. I like having friends that can make me feel better when I am feeling shitty.
Summer is coming up and at the rate I am going we may not be going on our Florida vacation. Although I would love the getaway.
Lately I have been pondering about life. Not so much the meaning of exsistence but what I want to do with it. I can go into my livejournal and find one post about this subject already. I talk about it entirely too much. I should be graduated with my Bachelor's degree by now, but I do not want to leave to go to a university. I have a wonderful realtionship with a very spectacular person and going to uni would mean leaving him here while I continue my schooling. Of course, moving to California would be hard as well. We would be both working full-time jobs and would have no time for school.
I also thought about my dog. I know this is really lame but I will miss him soooo much when I leave. He is my dog! I can't take him with my to California though, so he will have to stay with my parents. I don't want him to forget me though and I never want to replace him. I know this is lame, but what can you do?
So, deadlines are coming up and it is now April. I have yet to get that opportunity that I have been waiting for. How many more months will I wait for everything to fall through? I can't wait forever. It is nice knowing that this is my last year in Maryland, although I am afraid of the future. The future is pretty scary. My mom asked if Billy and I will be furthering our relationship since we will be moving out together. I don't know exactly what she means. I am guessing she is talking about getting engaged. I don't see any reason to rush it. It is a huge step though. Moving across country for the one person you want to be with.
I also have been thinking of the friends I have met over the last few months. I like to call them my BFF's because they are. It saddens me that I couldn't meet these people before. They make me smile and laugh. I like having friends that can make me feel better when I am feeling shitty.
Summer is coming up and at the rate I am going we may not be going on our Florida vacation. Although I would love the getaway.