GRR
so today i was thinking, and if this pisses you off, get over it.... I am sick and tired of every freaking person i know not truly careing about me. its really stupied, no one really gives two fucks about me... honestly noone really cares about anyone anymore, idk im bitchy... i wish i could find a great guy, someone who would care about me, let me do my own thing, but then really truly want me around. someone who put me first, but wasnt stuck up my butt. someone who would call just to say i love you. call me back after a fight, listen to me rant and not tell me its stupied... someone who when i cry, a part of them hurts just as bad as i do. idk alot of things have got me thinking, like you have no idea when your last day will be, so why do we spend so much time on the stupied crap and not near enough on things that matter? im making it a point to laugh more, cry less, love WAY more, and hate much less... i cant change my past, i dont make any excuses for the things ive done or said. this is me! who ive always been, and will always be... YES i can be a BITCH, but not all the time... i am moving on, even tho it hurts, i am prepared for the hardships to come. i didnt mean to break your heart, it just wasnt working anymore. and im sorry... but im not sorry for finally being happy, im not sorry that sometimes i need my friends. I am sorry that i am not always the best person, i am sorry that i hurt all of you so much, i dont mean to i really dont.... I WISH i had ONE person, just one that i could tell everything to, and i didnt feel stupied about it afterwards... i wish i had one person, i could always turn to, show the real me.. any ways i guess thats my rant for now
peace