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so i kinda had a breakdown and cried for like 3 hours last night.
people helped me through it and i love them for that.
kinda makes me nervous when those people dont have time for me anymore.
but thats part of what i need to work on. not worrying about the future or the past.
just have lots of shit racing through my head and no way to vent it all out.
i wish i was back in middle school. my biggest problem then was nothing compared to anything now.
i dont like when things change. i dont like it cuz i get use to things one way, being able to do something just cuz you are so comfortable with someone that it just works, but things change and different people are added and i get left out on the street. i know thinking this way isnt healthy. and i really should stop.
im working on it i really am.
i love you! and dont hate me. cuz i dont think i can deal with that.
people helped me through it and i love them for that.
kinda makes me nervous when those people dont have time for me anymore.
but thats part of what i need to work on. not worrying about the future or the past.
just have lots of shit racing through my head and no way to vent it all out.
i wish i was back in middle school. my biggest problem then was nothing compared to anything now.
i dont like when things change. i dont like it cuz i get use to things one way, being able to do something just cuz you are so comfortable with someone that it just works, but things change and different people are added and i get left out on the street. i know thinking this way isnt healthy. and i really should stop.
im working on it i really am.
i love you! and dont hate me. cuz i dont think i can deal with that.