LIFE
i dont even know where to begin. im very VERY annoyed with about 90% of the people in my life right now. people have been texting me, IMing me and calling me saying not very nice things. some things on the lines of "youre lame" "youre a flake" "you never answer my calls or texts" "we never hangout"
and this is honestly how i feel 100%
i am a pretty busy person. i work 30 hours a week and go to school 30 hours a week. when i actually have time to hangout with people, it tends to just be the same close friends of mine over, and over again. its my senior year, im trying to take advantage of the time i have with some people that i may or may not see in the next year or so. there also seems to be this issue with me being 17. SORRY MY PARENTS DIDNT CONCIEVE ME A YEAR EARLIER. i cant stay out past 12 on weekends or 9 on school days. sorry. last night i did, and i assume i will be hearing an ear ful tonight when my dad gets home. i do have a tendency not to answer my text messages. and i do appoligize for that. i guess me having a sidekick completly defeats the purpose of it. i am usually in the middle of doing something and just for get to respond. as for me being a flake?......... i dont really know how ive ever been a flake. the only way you can be flake is if you make plans and then dont show up................if i make plans, i fucking show up.. i wouldnt make the plans if i didnt want hangout. i dont know.
i for some reason am really over whelmed with life right now. im gradutating soon and im failing the 2 classes i need to pass. and report cards are comming out soon, which im sure will mean that im grounded my last quarter of senior year. im freaking out because i want to do things that i cant do right now. like go to pharmacy tech school and make more money. i keep trying to plan my summer and make things go smoothly for other people. im losing my best friends to something i thought i could or they could control but aparently im not in theyre top priorites any more. i just got sick of trying to hangout with my "best friends" and just not get replied to, so i just assume they would rather hang out with a boy over me. ive been skrewed over by guy after guy, and im not saying i want to be in a relationship right now... but its just hard sometimes. my money situation isnt where i want it to be because i keep having to spend my money on things i have to do. (like eat) ive been stressing over the physical shape im in. and wanting to be everything im not. i keep trying to work out. and have been really considering joinging a gym, but thats more money to spend on something i probably dont need to. my family situation has finally settled down, i dont know for how long.. but at least its not hell anymore.
im not an unhappy person. everyone knows that. i just feel like sceaming at everyone to leave me alone.
ps. someone also told me i was a poser.......................................what exactly does that person think im trying to be??
and this is honestly how i feel 100%
i am a pretty busy person. i work 30 hours a week and go to school 30 hours a week. when i actually have time to hangout with people, it tends to just be the same close friends of mine over, and over again. its my senior year, im trying to take advantage of the time i have with some people that i may or may not see in the next year or so. there also seems to be this issue with me being 17. SORRY MY PARENTS DIDNT CONCIEVE ME A YEAR EARLIER. i cant stay out past 12 on weekends or 9 on school days. sorry. last night i did, and i assume i will be hearing an ear ful tonight when my dad gets home. i do have a tendency not to answer my text messages. and i do appoligize for that. i guess me having a sidekick completly defeats the purpose of it. i am usually in the middle of doing something and just for get to respond. as for me being a flake?......... i dont really know how ive ever been a flake. the only way you can be flake is if you make plans and then dont show up................if i make plans, i fucking show up.. i wouldnt make the plans if i didnt want hangout. i dont know.
i for some reason am really over whelmed with life right now. im gradutating soon and im failing the 2 classes i need to pass. and report cards are comming out soon, which im sure will mean that im grounded my last quarter of senior year. im freaking out because i want to do things that i cant do right now. like go to pharmacy tech school and make more money. i keep trying to plan my summer and make things go smoothly for other people. im losing my best friends to something i thought i could or they could control but aparently im not in theyre top priorites any more. i just got sick of trying to hangout with my "best friends" and just not get replied to, so i just assume they would rather hang out with a boy over me. ive been skrewed over by guy after guy, and im not saying i want to be in a relationship right now... but its just hard sometimes. my money situation isnt where i want it to be because i keep having to spend my money on things i have to do. (like eat) ive been stressing over the physical shape im in. and wanting to be everything im not. i keep trying to work out. and have been really considering joinging a gym, but thats more money to spend on something i probably dont need to. my family situation has finally settled down, i dont know for how long.. but at least its not hell anymore.
im not an unhappy person. everyone knows that. i just feel like sceaming at everyone to leave me alone.
ps. someone also told me i was a poser.......................................what exactly does that person think im trying to be??