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Gah how can I just get rid of him?
The detergent Mom and I washed the clothes in at the hotel is the same detergent Jack uses. ALL of my clothes smell like him. This is horrible. I'd even consider doing laundry again to get rid of this memory-enducing scent.
He dropped some art film through my mail slot. He said he wanted to share something beautiful with me. It led to an argument. He wants a physical relationship without it ever leading to anything more. I do not. We left it at that. We'll see how it goes.
If I could just erase him from memory I would. Unfortunately, he was a big part of my life for the greater part of three years and a lot of memories can be attributed.
I'm trying to outweigh the memories through good memories of new relationships, mainly my ever-steadily growing relationship with Cole.
I have to go back to work tomorrow at the law office. Im ready to go back and get back in the swing of things. I worked at Wish today and it was good to feel useful again. I miss the cycle of everyday occurrences when I'm out of it for awhile.
I was dreadfully sad tonight as I drove home and found some adorable kittens in the street. I wanted so much to bring them home and make them safe. I can't have kittens in this house, or any animals for that matter. I can't afford to keep them anyways. I can barely support myself, much less another being. I miss having a pet though. I miss having someone to cuddle with.
Off to sleep I go.
The detergent Mom and I washed the clothes in at the hotel is the same detergent Jack uses. ALL of my clothes smell like him. This is horrible. I'd even consider doing laundry again to get rid of this memory-enducing scent.
He dropped some art film through my mail slot. He said he wanted to share something beautiful with me. It led to an argument. He wants a physical relationship without it ever leading to anything more. I do not. We left it at that. We'll see how it goes.
If I could just erase him from memory I would. Unfortunately, he was a big part of my life for the greater part of three years and a lot of memories can be attributed.
I'm trying to outweigh the memories through good memories of new relationships, mainly my ever-steadily growing relationship with Cole.
I have to go back to work tomorrow at the law office. Im ready to go back and get back in the swing of things. I worked at Wish today and it was good to feel useful again. I miss the cycle of everyday occurrences when I'm out of it for awhile.
I was dreadfully sad tonight as I drove home and found some adorable kittens in the street. I wanted so much to bring them home and make them safe. I can't have kittens in this house, or any animals for that matter. I can't afford to keep them anyways. I can barely support myself, much less another being. I miss having a pet though. I miss having someone to cuddle with.
Off to sleep I go.