First of all, thank you from me & JB to everyone who commented on my last post. I appreciate all of your congratulations, hugs, hearts, and kind thoughts!! ♥♥♥♥♥
Baby things!!
→ Nursing still has its difficulties that we are constantly working on. The first week home was very difficult and I cried a lot a lot a lot, but we're figuring things out.
→ "Sleep when the baby sleeps" haha okay what if my baby never fucking sleeps????? Alternately: what if he sleeps indefinitely when he's in my arms but as soon as I put him down I have about three minutes before he starts crying? WHAT THEN? Just kidding, I already know the answer to this riddle and it's "long-term sleep deprivation for mom."
→ School is so, so difficult. I knew it would be hard but I really didn't think it would be this hard. And the thing is that actually going to school is fine -- waking up, driving there, walking around campus, it's all fine, and in fact it feels nice sometimes because I get to take a break from just constantly nursing. It's the homework that feels nearly impossible. I just... I'm sure I'll make it work, but in the meantime, fucking A.
→ Complaints aside, JB is wonderful and I love him!!!! He makes silly faces and silly noises and he has my dimples, and at less than a month he's already holding his head up for really long stretches of time which is v impressive, and he's super alert and he loves to be held and he's fascinated by lights, and I love him.
I LOVE HIM.
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