Interlude:
→ Threw out my back, had to miss two days of work, everything was terrible. Since then have been better about stretching and have been trying to be better about posture, although ironically trying to take better care of my lower back makes my upper back/shoulders hurt more. Whatevs.
→ Also, my boss made me welcome-back cookies. ♥
→ Um it's mid-October and still getting up to like 95 degrees in the afternoon. I feel like this is a bit extreme even for Central California. < I've been trying to write this post for weeks and now it's finally cooled down enough for sweaters!!!!
→ Though I enjoy my work way more now that I'm not working for an unreasonable person (and the further away I get, the more I realize just how unreasonable she really was), I'm still trying to figure out how to balance work and not-work with varying levels of success. It's a process. I'm doing better work, but it's still a lot of work, and sometimes, when I'm taking a break or when I've actually gotten caught up, I feel like... I've forgotten how to have free time? Like it feels really weird and a little unsettling to not have any work to do. The other day I actually found myself thinking, "Wow, I have three days with absolutely no work to do, hmmmm" and then a teacher texted me to say she had about thirty papers for me and my first reaction was "Oh thank god." Idk, man.
→ I also feel like I've forgotten how to write something that's not for an exchange. How do I make a story happen without a set of someone else's hopes, desires, likes and dislikes to guide me???? Words???????
→ To try and fill the little pockets of workless time in my schedule, I've been reading (mostly nonfiction), watching stuff (recently finished Dark Matter which is great, also we are re-watching the original Star Wars trilogy), speculating about possible Robins in the new DC movies (for sure Jason exists in some capacity and that makes me want to scream), reading other people speculate about Fallout 4 (I doubt I will love it as much as New Vegas but I'm sure I will love it at least as much as Skyrim), absorbing way too much nicotine as I practice blowing rings (the trick is to use the back of your throat without moving your tongue, who knew), and daydreaming about all the things I'm going to buy when we have money (but probably will not actually buy any of them).
→ Unrelated: Japonism? JAPONISM. SO GOOD. YES.
→ Semi-related: I'VE BEEN OUT OF THE FANDOM LOOP DUE TO WORK, EXISTENTIAL AMBIGUITY, ETC., BUT LAST NIGHT PHRENK BROUGHT TO MY ATTENTION THE FACT THAT JUN FINALLY PARTED HIS HAIR ALL TO ONE SIDE!!!!!! When did he first get this haircut, like in April or something? I HAVE BEEN WAITING SIX MONTHS FOR THIS MOMENT. THANK YOU, MATSUJUN. I LOVE YOU TOO!!!
And now I am going to post this post and be done with it.
Crossposted here on Dreamwidth. You can comment there anonymously or using OpenID. ♥
→ Also, my boss made me welcome-back cookies. ♥
→ Um it's mid-October and still getting up to like 95 degrees in the afternoon. I feel like this is a bit extreme even for Central California. < I've been trying to write this post for weeks and now it's finally cooled down enough for sweaters!!!!
→ Though I enjoy my work way more now that I'm not working for an unreasonable person (and the further away I get, the more I realize just how unreasonable she really was), I'm still trying to figure out how to balance work and not-work with varying levels of success. It's a process. I'm doing better work, but it's still a lot of work, and sometimes, when I'm taking a break or when I've actually gotten caught up, I feel like... I've forgotten how to have free time? Like it feels really weird and a little unsettling to not have any work to do. The other day I actually found myself thinking, "Wow, I have three days with absolutely no work to do, hmmmm" and then a teacher texted me to say she had about thirty papers for me and my first reaction was "Oh thank god." Idk, man.
→ I also feel like I've forgotten how to write something that's not for an exchange. How do I make a story happen without a set of someone else's hopes, desires, likes and dislikes to guide me???? Words???????
→ To try and fill the little pockets of workless time in my schedule, I've been reading (mostly nonfiction), watching stuff (recently finished Dark Matter which is great, also we are re-watching the original Star Wars trilogy), speculating about possible Robins in the new DC movies (for sure Jason exists in some capacity and that makes me want to scream), reading other people speculate about Fallout 4 (I doubt I will love it as much as New Vegas but I'm sure I will love it at least as much as Skyrim), absorbing way too much nicotine as I practice blowing rings (the trick is to use the back of your throat without moving your tongue, who knew), and daydreaming about all the things I'm going to buy when we have money (but probably will not actually buy any of them).
→ Unrelated: Japonism? JAPONISM. SO GOOD. YES.
→ Semi-related: I'VE BEEN OUT OF THE FANDOM LOOP DUE TO WORK, EXISTENTIAL AMBIGUITY, ETC., BUT LAST NIGHT PHRENK BROUGHT TO MY ATTENTION THE FACT THAT JUN FINALLY PARTED HIS HAIR ALL TO ONE SIDE!!!!!! When did he first get this haircut, like in April or something? I HAVE BEEN WAITING SIX MONTHS FOR THIS MOMENT. THANK YOU, MATSUJUN. I LOVE YOU TOO!!!
And now I am going to post this post and be done with it.
Crossposted here on Dreamwidth. You can comment there anonymously or using OpenID. ♥