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[lover_n_fighter]

It takes something very important for me to update this thing. So here it goes: Ally died yesterday. If you've heard anything about a motorcycle crash in Port Wentworth, she was the 19-year-old female passenger that died. I will be speaking at her funeral service, but I'm not entirely sure when that will be. This was the last thing I needed. If I had known she was going to die, I would have spent more time with her. If only...

God, I know that she was reckless and she had done many things that you frown upon. Even if you have not let her into your kingdom, let her know she is missed severely. I don't know why you took her...she was too young, but as I said earlier...she was reckless yet carefree. If I had known I....don't know. I've never been so empty before. You've taken an uncle, a cousin, a half brother, two great grandmothers and now my best friend. What more must you take from me? Please don't take anyone else from me. Not now, not for another 30 years. I can't deal with anymore sorrow and death.

Nick has been telling me that I need to change my outlook on life because our time on this planet is too short. I didn't want to start changing my perspective so soon, and definitely not like this.

Emptiness....loss......sorrow....I miss her like crazy. I....need someone.