Shed a tear cause I'm missing you, I'm still alright to smile
Saturday will be two years since Trent died. I've been thinking about it a lot. I cried for a few hours the other night. I just miss him so much. I know I'll never fully get over it but I still don't really know how to feel. I don't want to be all sad on Saturday if I do end up going to John's. It's just hard. Losing someone so unexpectly. When you first learn about death, it usually goes, fish, cat/dog grandparents, older people. You basially learn that people get old a die so when someone just out of no where dies, it kinda throws you off. I miss him so much. He was just a great guy. He was one of those people that when he laughed you laughed too even if what he was laughing at wasn't that funny. I don't even know. I get kinda depressed around the holidays anyway so I'm sorry if I get even more emotion than I already am. First thing I'm gonna do when I wake up Saturday morning is light a candle. I'm glad I won't be alone that day. I wish more people that I was around now knew him. Most of my friends have no idea who he was and it kinda sucks that that's a part of my life they never will. Kinda crazy too.