So... I gave in...
Yeah so I finally decided to write something. I'm so over emotional. That's basically the only way I can explain how I feel. I don't know if I'm insecure or really what I'm insecure about. Of course I can't stop thinknig about Johnnie. Tarah talks to him a lot and really now I can too but I don't want to. I love him but I don't want him to come back...I don't want to talk to him. Really, I don't want to talk to anyone right now. At all. That'll probably change in like 5 minutes but still. I don't know...I had a good day. Nothing has happened at all to make me sad. I guess I'm not sad. I don't fuckin know. I really don't even know why I'm writing this. Last night I was feeling kinda iffy about leaving but right now I wish I could leave tomorrow. That thought will probably change in like 3 minutes. Consistancy isn't one of my better qualities. Hmm... what is a better quality? I'll think about that later. So many thoughts go through my head at once. Which I guess happens to most people...but I only know myself. Kinda...I want to go to Seattle. I'm listening to Jake and Sarah talk about there trip and I really want to go. I haven't talked to Alexis for a long time. I don't know what to say to her. I'm so unsocial right now. I should go converse with my brother. I haven't seen him for a week. I still need to go over to his house to watch those movies Sarah wanted me to watch 6 months ago. Someday...