Aug 30, 2006 17:34
Title: Regrets
Rating: PG-13
Warnings: Unbeta‑ed, Ep 32 ‘Boy Meets Girl’
Genre: Angst, tragedy
Word Count: 407
Main Character(s): Riku, Diva, mentions of Kai and Saya
Ship(s): None
Summary: I want to tell them how much I love them but I can’t. Because I won’t ever see them again. One shot.
Disclaimer: Blood+ is copyright to Production IG and Aniplex.
Author's Notes: I wanted to write this from Riku’s POV of that moment for a very long time now, since Ep 32 but I never got a chance to because it’s just so hard and every time I made some progress, I’d discard the works. I tried to think about how Riku felt during his last moments and before his death but I’m afraid I might have made him somewhat OOC in here (damnit!). This is somewhat rough so I might revise it when I have the time.
I am my sister’s Chevalier. It is my duty to protect her and keep her from danger.
And yet I cannot even gather the will or strength to protect my own brother. I can only watch as she throws Kai-niichan out of the way as easily as one throws away a ragdoll. I am frozen in terror; commanding my legs to move are useless because they feel like they’ve been glued to the floor.
She is different from Saya-neechan. I can see the differences now that she is before me. I wonder how I could have ever made the mistake of thinking she was my sister that time? Because she isn’t my sister and she is so different, even though she looks nearly alike. She is all pale colours and white, from her skin to her dress. Her eyes are blue, not like my sister’s reddish-brown ones. When she smiles, I can see how her mouth turns upward cruelly and coldly. There is no warmth in that smile and it doesn’t reach her eyes.
I can’t tear my eyes away from her, even as she undresses herself, exposing her bare skin to me shamelessly. My heart pounds, as if it’s trying to escape from my chest and I can hear the loud roaring in my ears, blocking out any other sounds. I realize that I am whimpering, almost crying in utter fear. I know what she is, who she is. I know that she is after me.
Me, Riku, and not Saya-neechan or Kai-niichan. Why she wants me, I have an inkling of an idea when she strips herself bare of her dress, save for the shoes.
She smiles softly, murmuring something to me and leans forward. Her lips are cold as ice. I didn’t fight her. I can’t. I want to but I am paralysed by this irrational fear. I allow her to do as she pleases with me and my body. She finishes what she has come to do, smiles and tells me that I have been a good boy so she will now reward me.
Won’t someone come and save me? I don’t want to die. There are just so many things I want to do and places to see. But as she kisses me and I taste something tart, I know that no one will come in time to save me.
I don’t want them to feel guilty for my death. I wish that I can tell them that but I can’t. I wish I can tell them how much I love them as well but I can’t. I can’t tell them anything anymore. Because I won’t ever see them again.
And the last person that I see before I die is her face, forever etched into my mind.
Owari.
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