waiting to rinse
i don't understand "all or nothing". it really makes the least sense to me of anything you ever did. cheating, drugs, lies, those things at least made sense, as to why you did it. "all or nothing" does not.
i love you enough to realize that this would not work. that we could both be happier with others. there could be other people to "get" us the way we struggled to "get" eachother. i love you enough to see you with someone else. to see you happy. to see you want to be around someone and want them to be happy too.
it hurts to not see or speak or know. to worry all of the time for there is no way to confirm. it makes me cry. it honestly ruins a big part of my day. you let someone close to you go, for the best, and you don't know what happens to them.
you say a bit of you will love me everyday. well a bit of me hurts everyday. knowing how easy you can just throw it all away.
and you did. you ruined us.
i love you enough to realize that this would not work. that we could both be happier with others. there could be other people to "get" us the way we struggled to "get" eachother. i love you enough to see you with someone else. to see you happy. to see you want to be around someone and want them to be happy too.
it hurts to not see or speak or know. to worry all of the time for there is no way to confirm. it makes me cry. it honestly ruins a big part of my day. you let someone close to you go, for the best, and you don't know what happens to them.
you say a bit of you will love me everyday. well a bit of me hurts everyday. knowing how easy you can just throw it all away.
and you did. you ruined us.