Private Entry
...Why do I trust people so easily? Why was it so easy for me to accept what Light-kun told me, even though I knew he hurt Matsuda-san, and now Ryuuzaki-kun? I scare myself, sometimes. But at least I know better now.
And now I'm conflicted about something else, too. I promised Light-kun that I'd keep his Death Note a secret, but is he worth that promise anymore? I kept it because I thought we were brothers, or at least like brothers, but I don't know if I want to view him that way anymore. But you don't abandon family just because they act like an asshole sometimes, right? I confuse myself too much.
I also need to stop jumping to conclusions. Of course we were never official, I just got so excited though... I feel guilty for talking about it with Matt-chan, too. I'll have to call her him and tell him to forget about our conversation, for whenever we do the double date. That date would still be fun, though... Ryuuzaki-kun could probably use the lightness of it right now, too. I should ask him soon, it'd take my mind off things too...
Sometimes I can't help thinking though that I'm just a replacement for him... but Ryuuzaki-kun said it himself; we are two totally different people, that can't be true. I'm just being silly.
And now I'm conflicted about something else, too. I promised Light-kun that I'd keep his Death Note a secret, but is he worth that promise anymore? I kept it because I thought we were brothers, or at least like brothers, but I don't know if I want to view him that way anymore. But you don't abandon family just because they act like an asshole sometimes, right? I confuse myself too much.
I also need to stop jumping to conclusions. Of course we were never official, I just got so excited though... I feel guilty for talking about it with Matt-chan, too. I'll have to call her him and tell him to forget about our conversation, for whenever we do the double date. That date would still be fun, though... Ryuuzaki-kun could probably use the lightness of it right now, too. I should ask him soon, it'd take my mind off things too...
Sometimes I can't help thinking though that I'm just a replacement for him... but Ryuuzaki-kun said it himself; we are two totally different people, that can't be true. I'm just being silly.