today is the day
so 2day is officially the day hes leaving.... i was rlly pissed off last nite cuz i couldnt c him. 2 much drama getting back & forth. but by some kind of miracle my dad offered to drive me all the way over there this morning 2 c him off. I'm glad i get 2 c him 1 more time. I'm not scared b/c its honestly not a scary situation. I guess its just b/c i dont have any1 besides him. sure ive got my dad & my sister but wen it comes down 2 it hes more than just my bf. hes my best friend, my back bone, everything. and now its goin away. im not rlly the vulnerable type so its crazy 2 me that im feelin this way. but thats the thing about him. he opens me up so much that i cant control things like i used 2. it will all work out. i just wish it was a little easier 2 say goodbye. but then again if its easy its not real